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Saturday, December 31, 2005

happy new year everyone!

hello there, pals!

initially, i'd like to greet everyone...

A HAPPY, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

and boy, keep those resolutions so that all of us can be better people, as each year progresses, shan't we?!

sorry i ddnt get to blog yesterday.the damned computer won't connect! i'm actually using my mom's laptop, and her office's internet connection which surprisingly, is really slow. it's even slower than our PC, which is not even DSL. why surprising? because when u usually take a visit in me momma's office, the speed nof the internet connection can just make you go "WOAH" if you're not a DSL user, just like me. And believe me, it's way, way faster than DSL so i guess it also includes DSL users. don't get me wrong, i'm still at home, only using her laptop and inet connection.

so, anyway, speaking of resolutions, i'd like to put mine online. nothing really personal. if ever that there are, then i'd wudnt put it nalang. duh. haha.

MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS FOR o6.

1. Nicole. i wudnt call myself a good friend [to him] last o5. most probably a lame one. so this year, i promise that i'll be a really, really good best friend. someone who'd be there when he needs someone to talk to [yeah, i know. it's cliche. but damn, who the hell cares?] someone who he can trust, someone who wudnt be harsh on him. heehee.

2. actually related to number one. i wudnt be so narrow-minded, so sensitive and so tight on me other friends, and to me beshphwend as well. as much as possible, i wouldn't backstab other people, but on the contrary, i'd say good things about them and compliment them.[sounds like an angel? yeah riggghtt.]

3. i would never, ever procrastinate, as i waste time. and they say time is gold. but wait a second,procrastinating actually does me good since when i procrastinate, i cram.and when i cram [especially on doing projects involving artwork]it produces better resluts, i tell you. for an instance, i was doing my one-pager for my reading reaction paper on princess in pink, princess diaries volume o5., i like, wasted gazillions of bond paper because i tried to do it early. not that i meant it,right on purpose, but i ddnt like it. it ddnt satisfy me. so, i'm still thinking about this one.

4. never be jealous of other people. as the beshphwend [no, it's not wrong grammar,okaay.] says, always look at someone worse than you [hell, i know it's mean, but it works for him, i guess. i haven't tried it. ]. you are unique in your own special way. if you had the character//talent//appearance that you wanted, you'd be perfect already, and everybody knows, as it is a 100000000000000000% cliche,NO ONE'S PERFECT. so just bear with your imperfections. they're something to accept.

5. always, ALWAYS exert effort in every endeavor, every single activity, every single thing that you do[enter]. be the best in everything [to quote diana sumera :D]. do everything that you can. it would hurt to lose//fail something where you know you ddnt exert effort to. it's double the pain of losing and exerting effort. no wait. i think it's the other way around. but whatever.

[OFF TOPIC: OHMIGAWSH, i think someone got in an accident in our street. No wait. it's just a car alarm. i am so damn dumb.hahhahahahahahha.]

6. don't hurt yourself. always say good stuff about you. i mean, don't brag, but don't say you're dumb either. it boosts self-confidence, not EGO. if someone gives you a compliment, accept it with a thank you and don't fake humbleness, just like i always do.actually,everyone does. [for an instance, someone tells you that you have a nice shirt. you say, nah. + something negative about the shirt. get what i mean?][OFF TOPIC: i went outside for a while and watched the fireworks. they were B-E-A-UTIFUL! we had our own. haha. it was GORGY]

7. this one's hard. HANDS OFF JUNKFOOD! ahah! maybe once or twice a week, but not more than thrice, as this affects health, weight and waistline. HAHA.

8. get involved with as many sports as i can. wooh.

9. have a regular excercise! this one's a necessity.

1o. have i mentioned to bring out the inner neat freak in me? hyup, i hvnt. i shud always keep my things where they shud be. in tagalog, dapat nde burara! haha. i always get reprimanded for that.

1o. don't be extravagant. save money from DA [daily allowance. ;)]

11. be true to thyself.

12. never miss an episode of queer eye for the straight guy, the oc and oth [one tree hill]

13. try//experiment other styles, genres and stuff. teehee.

14. be original.

15. AIM HIGH.

16. "what others think of you is none of your business" - making friends

17. hah. finally learn how to make my own blogger template.

18. find my talent. i mean, my own special weapon. any ideas on this part?

19. if i want something, then i should say it. it doesn't necessarily mean that i have to get it.just voice out.

20. i'll be industrious!

21. i'll blog when i can! as much as possible, i'd say.

huwell, i guess this entry ends here. it's almost 1.oo. hehe. it's the first day of january, and this is my first post for the year! WHOOPEE. heheh.

anyway, the people in the sala are watching monsters inc. i guess it's done. cause i can hear....

"i wudnt have nuthn if i didnt have yooh." :D...

that's a nice line. AHHA..

so, i guess. it has to end here...

wishin ya'll a prosperous new year!

lotza luuurve,

vickie.

P.S.

# 22. i'll make more realistic new year's resolutions. HAHA. KiDDiNG! :p

Thursday, December 29, 2005

quiz result

I took the "If You Were a Star..." quiz on gURL.com
I am a...
tv personality
very day you come into people's living rooms. It's a good thing you do it through their TV set, otherwise you might be risking arrest! As a TV Personality you probably know it takes a thick skin and a great sense of humor to put up with roller coaster ratings and extra-long days on set.Read more...

Which star are you?

hello there!

wow.

i survived.

i went without the internet [and blogging, for that matter] for five straight days.

and dang, was i paranoid!

i like, had a thousand things on my mind on the way back home from quezon city.

oh, yeah, by the way... i went to my lola's house in quezon city where my dad stays...and where my cuzns from marinduque stayed.

i stayed there from december 25-28. i went home today, december 29.

originally...

i was supposed to stay there only till the 27th. pero my dad asked us to stay one day more.
eh my sister, chiara wanted to stay longer. so we did. actually, i ddnt want to because i really wanted to log-in na.i had to blog down what was on my mind. haha.

and yeah, i was really paranoid without the internet.

and i mean REALLY!

so...here's a journal and pix of what i did from the 25th to the 28th.

december 25:

my dad together with my lola, tito bong, tita gemma, hydee, mary rose and john paul fetched us up from our house.

we went straight to lola ninang and lolo ed's house sa pasig. there, we had our annual reunion every xmas.

there, were the whole beltran clan. i don't remember anyone missing. except for me mommy, i guess.

i even saw my cousin...who i think is achulli cute. i won't say the name. baka may maka'basa eh! hahaha...

kadiri. incest! niahah!

then i ate there. OP nga aq eh. so i was texting angeline and vamos. and i had my own world, i wud occasionally talk to my cuzns. pero not this time. there were times when we wud talk and play. those wud happen when we go out and swim. msaya un! super. haha.

tita ponggay brought her dog, dagul. ascal ata eh...here's his pic.

kala nio umiinom ian! nde! he's sleeping! nakatulog xa with his snout [tama ba?] inside the cup with milk!hahahah.

after that, we went back home...there, we settled down.i played the sims in the ps2, pero i stopped kxe lola wantd 2 watch something sa tv. then ate dinner. then i watched tv with hydee and mary rose. btw, hydee's my age while mary rose is 11. john paul's 8. i also watched tv with ate nelda, lola's house helper.

december 26:

woke up at 8:3o. then i ate breakfast with the whole family. then we took a bath, then i watched abs-cbn. wala kxeng cable eh. but it's okay. before naman kxe, wala kming cable so i'm used to watching local tv shows na. we watched cartoons and then i watched homeboy. they were featuring previous episodes requested by the people. they featured vilma santos' and sharon cuneta's. i was about to vote for the episode featuring matteo guidicelli, pero i suddenly remembered that i ddnt have load pala! sayang talaga oh!

then at about 3:oo, we went to himlayang filipino, a cemetery. there, my grandfather was buried. from my dad's side [oh btw, my mom wasn't with us eh.kxe she had a conflict with dad. so dad stays at lola's house and we stay with my mom. pero d pa divorced. so she's you know...mejo iniiwasan ung fam gatherings.] we went there because we had to celebrate the death anniv. of the sister of me lola. she died december 26. may she rest in peace.

anyway...so we visited the grave of my grandpa. then we went to the church dun mismo sa cemetery,pero before that, i went to the grave of the sis of me lola. andun na cla kuya jm. heheh. we prayed at her grave, then nag'pahangin lang. tell you what, himlayang pilipino wud have made a perfect park except for the grave and everything. i mean, there's this beautiful view from lola des' grave, tapos parang umupo kami sa wall, then muni-muni lang. i even took this pic...

ganda noh? ewan ko, for me it's beautiful. haha. parang melancholy ung dating. ionno. it just gives me that feeling. it's just a perfect scene. air breezing through tapos u sitting down that wall. then the perfect, picturesque view. the only thing lacking is someone holding my hand! hahah.

aww! heheh.

then after that, we went home and then we watched tv. we watched game ka na ba. sam concepcion was there! i think he's really talented. and cute. haha. how come i saw his pic in candymag pero he looks really different there! he's geeky and all. tapos moreno p xa dun! ionno why! hahha. basta one thing's for sure. he's hot stuff!

december 27:

it's just a regular day, except that we went to SM city. i was like, WOAH THERE! ang dami kasi ng tao! parang everytime i go there, stressed ako kxe ang daming tao tapos! ah ewan! maybe i'm not that used to it. i always go to atc eh, but there were never that much people there! haha...

SM city... huwell, we looked for clothes for dad's inaanak [godchild] israel. then hydee bought a school bag. she also likes blue. sky blue tho. i like any shade of blue as long as it's blue. hahah... too bad i can't find a good blue and black template for this blog of myn.

after that, we went to the arcade. dun! sala-salabat ang mga tao! my head hurt when we left! grabe! pero it was kunda fun. i gathere 473 tickets! not bad, eh? there were also poor kids there, asking me to have a turn. i did give him one, pero un na un.

after that, we ate sa chowking. astig kaia! it had this system like the ones in restos. wait till seated! haha. iup, it's cool. here's a pic.

i swear i look like a complete timang in this pic! hahahahahah.. :D

december 28:

it's just a regular day. the tv was up to our room sa 3rd floor, so d na nanood c lola. me dad brought it up the night before kxe ang ingay namin while watching tv eh nde makatulog c lola. so iun.

nothing unusual. crap, i shud have been home by today! :(( wah.

yey! there u go...

now, let me talk about today...

huwell, i just woke up, then ate breakfast alone. nauna na cla eh. then i played the ps2 wyl dada and fxed our stuff.

then we went down. then we prayed. i read an f1//car mag. it was cool. btw, i have a new interest!

cars and f1! it's because of that magazine. evn if d pa aq nakakanood ng isang f1 race, i wud want to. i'd bet on fernando alonso and kimi raikkonen. i think they're good. raikkonen's cute! hahah...

anyway, here are pix of billboards that i saw on the way home.

"obey your parents, teachers and the washing instructions"

mejo malabo noh? that's matteo in the penshoppe ad. gumalaw ung car so i ddnt get to catch the whole thing but that's what it says in the billboard. here's another one.

"everyone has a mellow side."

this one advertises a radio station. mellow touch ata eh. i just find it amusing! hahah...

after that, i reached home...FINALLY!

yahoo!

yahoo!hahah.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

hello there chums!

it's vicky here wishing everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year!

yey!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

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these are the stilettos that i was talking about! wahahah...

huwell, one more day before xmas!

[music: where are you , natalie and justin romano]

i could have sworn the romano guy sounds like usher. REALLY. especially the background voice, saying things like, yeah and those stuff. REALLY. you have to hear it to get what i mean.

well! it's a day before chrimbo! oye. i just received another chrimbo gift from me momma. this time, i don't know what it is. chiara also received one. then i got a gift from me ninong raymond, and two more from me very rich uncles [momma's friends] tito richard and tito mike. weehee. and yeah, another one from me ninang and ninong. ninang meanne and ninong franz. ayee. haha.

i still have a number of remaining gifts from me classmates//friends that remain unopened. uhmm....they are....ange's , angeli's [the fragile one.], mmm....corinne's, cyril's...enzo's...ah basta meron pa! forgot na the others//'s eh... ah basta. hehe.

i am particularly interested with me momma's gift. i mean, it's oddly shaped, so it gives u no single clue of what it is. wahah.

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huwell, huwell, what do we have here. a shy little bastardo. this chimera_alfred12@yahoo.com guy messaged me and asked me hu i am. i told him that he was the one that added me up so don't he damn ask me who the hell i am. then he called me a bitch. of course, if u were in me place you would rage with fury since u dnt even know the guy,then he call u a bitch. then he wud tell me things like. f*** me b*tch and those kind of stuff. eh talagang nagalit aq, so nag'mura aq. sorry. eh he's so bad talaga!

the moment i find out who the hell he is, ahh...patay xa sqn. talaga.

well, i guess this post has to end already.

the pix of the stilettos are posted na ah...

okiedokie.buhbay!

lotza lurvin...

beekee :D

Friday, December 23, 2005

chrimbo gift...agaiN!

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oh yes. that's a chrimbo gift from me uncle. tito pip. he's me mom's bro. hahah. nice eh?! they look good wit me purple butterfly necklace...swarovski... :D proud! naks naman! cge, more later!

haaaai

it's a bad night...

i dnt wana talk about it nalang. :(

basta it's a bad night...

anyway, here are the surveys that i collected when i was still using xanga...way, way back.

Survey numbah wan:

Chapter One-Me

Name: victoria marquez

Nicknames: vicky//vickie//vikee//vix

Age: 12

Sex: FeMaLe

Eye Color: bRoWn//bLack//ionno!

Hair Color: bLaCk

Height: 5'2?!

Zodiac Sign: ViRgO

Chapter Two-Favorites

Color: bLuE!//red//green//pink//black

Shape: heart! weehee//flowers

Food: caesar salad! khet lettuce and caesar dressing lang, kei na...ah nde, achulli msarap un with roasted chicken//steak

Drink: h2o...coke//pepsi max//iced tea//root beer!

Fruit: mangoes

Music: rock...pop-rock//glam-rock//punk rock...pop...hip-hop...underground hip-hop

Movie: marami eh...pero ryt now...i wanna watch...bruce almighty!

Day: mmm...fridays and saturdays...

Holiday: xmas

Number: o9,o5,18,23

Car: rvs...or an enzo ferrari

Computer Game: mmm.... ionno

Chapter Three-Right Now

What are you wearing: blue and wyt board shorts...white tee.

Hows your hair done: loose.

What are you craving: love.

Who are you crushin on: mike shinoda//champ lui-pio//mark ruffalo

What are you listing to: where are you.natalie feat. justin romano [i swear he sounds like USHER!]

Chapter four-Do You...

Cuss: wassat?! :p

Drink: naww.

Do Drugs: heLL no.

Smoke: nahh.

Belive in love: oh yes.

Workout: nah.before...excercise....

Chapter five-Future

Do You Wanna get married: ofcurz.

What do you wanna be: a writer//an editor of a famous teen mag. aha. CANDY!

Do you want kids: oye.

If so, how many: two. a guy and a chick

What would you name them: andre matthew and bianca rachel

Describe your dream wedding: beachside...or sa church...ah...st.peter's cathedraL!

some more coming!

lutza lurve...

vix

well, m done watching!

hoohoo. mark ruffalo is h-o-t! haha. really hot. he's the perfect leading man. em not kidding! haha. he's got the boy next-door charm!

movie just done, was just browsing through the channels. caught kung wala ka by hale on mtv. the next music vid was by cueshe and i was like..."never mind". no offense to the cueshe fans but i don't like 'em. the only thing that i like about 'em is ruben caballero, the guy singing with the guitar. no! not jay justiniani, their vocalist. how the hell do i know their names?! ack.

well, stopped by one chinese/korean channel. full house was on air. watched it since there ain't any good show at this time of the day. haha. jessie [song hye kyo] is just amusing! i like her! hahah.

well, that's it for now!

alabshoo lotz!

vickee. [para naman maiba, dba?!]

view from the top

hello there...again!

well, right now, i am watching view from the top for the third time.

haha. well, i caught it on TV...i was super bored! really really bored. hehe. so i watched it.

it stars gwyneth paltrow...i think. that's how you spell it, don't you? ionno. i am such a dum dum.

weehee. it also stars mark ruffalo. i think that guy's hawt stuff. no really, i do! he also starred in just like heaven with the witherspoon chica. i forgot her first name. REESE! now, i remember! haha.

well, gona come back later. just gawna finish the movie!

lutza lovin..

vickie.

weehee! i look like a complete nut!

well, my sis and i were making a fool out of ourselves by walking using our mom's black stilettos! weehee. pix later!

i'm born to walk in stilettos! ang kapaL ng face eh! hahaha... well, chi looks like a complete dum dum walking in it! hahahah. :D

the stilettos are about....2-2.5 inches! ahahah... and yeah, my feet freakin hurt! haha..

ate the brownies made by ate yesterday. ang tigas na! haha. ate the butterscotch, still the same, they still taste goood! yeah...

well, hang on for the pix later!

lutza lurve..

vickie

p.s. people are asking me why do i spell vicky with the i-e instead of the usual y. well, i just do because i want to! aLA LANG! HAHA.

g'morning chum!

haha...

i am so bored. weehee!

i practically don't have anything to write about.

well, i achulli do!

here are the lyrics of....

EVERYTHING I'M NOT BY THE VERONICAS

Oh no

Don't go changing

That's what you told me from the start

Thought you where something different

That's when it all just fell apart

Like you're so perfect

And I can't measure up

Well I'm not perfect

Just all messed up

[chorus]

I was loosing myself to somebody else

But now I see

I don't wanna pretend

So this is the end of you and me

Cause the girl that you want

She was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything

Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody

Telling me where I should go at night

Don't worry you'll find somebody

Someone to tell how to live their life

Cause you're so perfect

And no one measures up

Yeah all by yourself

You're all messed up

[chorus]

Now wait a minute

Because of you

I never knew all the things that I had

Hey don't u get it

I'm not going anywhere with you tonight

[chorus]

But now I seeI don't wanna pretend

So this is the end of you and me

Cause the girl that you want

she was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything

Everything I'm not

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tell you what, this song is my life! haha. i lurveee it.... :)

this song is like something that kelly clarkson will sing. sounds like...mm...since u been gone? or maybe it just reminds me of that song. haha. ah, basta... it's LSS! i über-love that song! weehee!

huwell, huwell, i guess that's it for now! buhbai!

lutza lurve,

vickie.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

today is let's be happy day!

well, since mi beastfriend lia told me that my blog is full of problems and it's pangit daw tingnan, then today should be a happy happy day. :)

what shud i talk about?! hmm... hmm...

huwell, oh mi gash! the roasted chicken got burnt! hahah.... hahahha... well, atleast still edible. NASUNOG! HHAHAHAH. wahaha... woah, stinks here.

....since it's the xmas season already, and if you don't live in those exclusive villages, like ayala alabang, you may come across christmas carolers. since we live near the squatters area (don't worry, they're not the squatter as in sLum. they just dnt own the land. basta squatters. it's a decent place naman.), there are very very irritating and mmm...disrespectful young carolers.

haha. nakakainis kaya! they like, repeat, and some kiddos, if u dnt give 'em money, it's either kakanta pa cla ng mas malakas, or mag pa'pa-awa effect.no, i'm not being a damn meanie, it's just that....

a. we don't have barya or coins to give to the kids

b. if i give them food, babalik sila and the next thing u kno, a whole batch of carolers are waiting right at ur doorstep.

c. if i dnt give them food, which happened to me, they'll make bOla...like..."ate, ang ganda ng bahay nio"....and things like that. if u play their game, they'll irritate u..."ate oh, may dimple ka sa pwet! (butt)"....and i was like..."what the hell?! scarm now, wnt choo!?" ...it's just irritating.

d. i once used me own money on one small girl, she was singing so well. others kasi, they shout, na parang, d na nila kinakanta ung song, they're just shouting....and u kno... it sucks! i mean, u sing at other people's houses for the sprit of christmas. AYUSIN NIO NAMAN!

hahaha.... i am so mean...

well, ryt now....i am....

a. editing me hi5 account! add me up! bratty_in_blue18@yahoo.com

b. downloading mp3. since i only have a dial-up connection, bandwith's not enuf, so i only download 2-4 mp3s at a time. i'm dloadng at lime wire. currently...

...get ur number by mariah carey

...falling by keahiwai

c. making me piczo site. hehe.

d. uploading pix in me multiply: http://missunderstood18.multiply.com

e. m not chattin wit anyone in YM. oh boo. no one interesting onlyn. i mean, no one to discuss stuff with. other people may have better things to do than chat wit me. but ionno. :)

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carolers stopped by at our house, they sang pretty well with the guitar accompaniment.we gave them barya.basta we searched for coins sa living room. weehee.

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now, let's talk about happy stuff. :D what makes u happy? well, a lot of stuff makes me happy. these things make me happy...

*> puppy dawgs!

*> anything vLoo

*> music

*> food!

*> mmm... 3ps to the beach!

*> matteo makes me happy! matteo as in matteo guidicelli! hahaha. weird.

*> lia c. makes me happy!

*> me bestfriend nicole makes me happy! [khet lgi nia aqng inaaway!]

*> oye! the show friends and the queer eye for the straight guy makes me look stupid since i always, always laugh when i watch those shows! kudos to the fab 5 espexali to carson kressly! and to jennifer aniston, ross hull, the chandler guy [forgot the name...sorry!!!!],, courtney cox-arquette and the phoebe chick [woohoo...forgot...! so soorry!!]

*> the song my humps, even tho it's haunting me.i always remember me beshphwend when i hear this song! HAHA. :D

huwell, huwell, i guess i have ta go now! take cur u guys!

alabshoo lots!

vickie. ü

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

here i am. depressed. as usual.

why am i so depressed these days? is it part of puberty?

i always feel bad. =((

this, by far, is my most frustrating, degrading, and mmm.... confusing part of my life.

the part where i have to love one person and i have to be so fickle-minded and then the rest is history...which, repears itself. i ruin my life. like i always do.

but now, it's worse. worse that ever.

because this time, i'm sure i fell for him.

it's not JUST a crush. it's real love. the genuine article.

hoo...but God has a knack for ruining my life, so the guy that i like either.... has a girlfriend or is head-over-heels in love with another girl.

oh crap.

now, what, i help him with the girl. they're in a some kind of a relaxonship. MU, i say.

ouch. my past crushes have had girlfriends, for Peter's sake.

eh bat ngaun? it's just a plain crush.

why am i hurt this way?

i mean, before, j even used to talk to me about their monthsary.

now, i feel like something stabs my heart every time she talks to me about him.

how he's sweet. how it's nakakakilig. how... how... he's so perfect. how he's so wonderful. even how irritating he is. even how she wants him to talk to her.

it's an instant mood swing when she talks about him. it's like...woah! it's such prettyful day! then the next thing u know, it's bLah. humbug.

haay. u kno wat? if i had just one wish. [uy, song un ah] i wish that i can turn back time, then i wudnt have to ask ms. a kung sino sa tingin nia is the "perfect guy" for me. then , she wudnt have to answer it's him, then i wudnt have to have a crush on him, then i wudnt start texting him...and u kno wat happens next. no, actually, that's a wrong wish since i myt have fallen for him, even tho i ddnt ask ms. a eh. so the perfect wish is...

I WISH I NEVER BECAME HIS SEATMATE WHEN I WAS IN G*

i dnt wana say what grade.mi fwnds myt find out hu. he even myt stumble to my blog and find out hu i'm talking about.

hoo... life is so crappy. i wish i never became his seatmate. then, i wudnt have to find him interesting and even before, had a crush on him. i ddnt even realized that i've fancied him since before. since i was in greyd *toot*. hoo. i only realized it now. just now. i ddnt even realize that there's something in there. for him. i'd smile when i see his name somewhere, i always look for him, even after the year that we have been seatmates. that i smiled and slept happily when he texted last o8.28. i remember the date.

it's not safe to say that i love him because he makes me smile, he makes me happy...etc. etc.

i always feel that way naman when i have a crush eh. atleast, dun sa last two crushes.

pero iba ngaun.

i've grown a two years older. [since the f incident]

old 'nuff to realize that when i sulked over f... it was dumb and stupid. not to menxon, low.i was forcing myself to sulk. maybe because i needed drama in my life, ionno. there are a lot of possible reasons. yes, it still embarrasses me thinking about it. that's so childish.

now, i have a valid reason to sulk and to be depressed.

i'm insecure and the love of my life loves another girl.

now that's valid.

don't tell me that's not.

i've never been so insecure in my life.

rather, jealous.

maybe both.

i don't know.

....

NEVER

never have i felt this way

never have i wanted anyone today

never have i needed someone

never have i wanted for someone to love

never have i longed for someone's voice

never have i longed for your reply

never have i wanted for your caress

never have i wanted for you to kiss

never have i felt so sad

never have i felt sa bad

never have i ever missed

someone like this.

never.

have

loved

someone

this way.

...........

that's the poem that i made. not much of a poem tho.

well, i guess that's it for now. full of sappy rubbish.

hope u forgive me foh dat.

anyway...

alabshoolotz.

vickie.

ala lang!

well, i made this banner out of boredom since i ddnt get to connect on the net.

now, let me talk about my relationship with junkfood.

vuzever vickie.

if u consider coke as junkfood, then i say junkfood has been *literally* a part of mi life since i was in my momma's tummy.

you see, my mom used to tell me that when i was in her tiyan, then they mention anything about coke, she can feel either my elbows or knees poking in her tummy. she says it's true. even her officemates say so. haha.

then, when i was about 2 or vuzever, still a toddler, my mom used to hide coke from me thru spelling it out. c-o-k-e! haha. then, i heard her raw telling my dad...

"dad, bili taung c-o-k-e"

then i asked my mom..."what's c-o-k-e? coke?" see? i was destined for junkfood! and eversince, i can't lay my hands of 'em...they're the main reason why em fat. chubby, i guess.this one's true. it's fresh in my mind

but so? junkfood, together with chocolate, never fails to cheer me up pag talagang super down time. promise. haha. when princess and i talked, then ung na'luha aq, when i cried...i reached out for a bag of lays [barbeque flavor] and ate myself out, grabe....parang...wala nalang sqn...
hahah! :D
but ish troo. haha.
ionno why... junkfood and i are destined for each other?
dang, ain't i listening to ms.emily when she discussed the dangers of junkfood?
but what can i do?
u want me to commit suicide?
maybe...everything in moderation...
nun lang naman aq kumain ng todo-todo eh.
and i excercise...so i guess, there ain't nuthng wrong with it.

hehe....basta. EVERYTHING IN MODERATION!

labshoolotz...
vickie.

www.one.org

hey there folks! :D

woah, it IS true, u'll know how important one THiNG is when you lose it.

well, yesterday, i went on a day without logging-in the internet. the damned computer won't connect, though when i checked our two landline phones but they are in a completely fine condition.

so i was so paranoid that i kept turning the pc on and off to check whether the vibe's connecting already. crap...hahah. :D

today naman, i opened it for my reading project. i had to re'print the front page since i messed it all up.i connected then i was acting like a complete nut saying

"sinasamba kita! mag'connect ka! please!"

seriously. i was that desperate. and then...the majestic message appeared:

"verifying user name and password"

you can't imagine how happy i am. i was screaming my lungs out! haha. kawawa naman ung carolers.

anway, i just received an auto-mail from www.one.org. this one's from bono, the lead vocalist of U2. here it goes...

Dear Friend:
Thank you for starting a movement to save lives. Thank you for asking your friends and family to join ONE.org. Thank you for calling on the President, Congress and the heart of America to do more for the world's poor.
Thank you for being one of the first 2 million of us crazy enough to say America won't stand for global AIDS and stupid poverty. And thank you to the people who joined campaigns in other countries to make their governments come to the table and do more for the world's poor.
Thank you for the concrete results that came from calling on America to invest more in fighting poverty and disease in Africa and around the world. In July, the whole world heard you: the leaders of the 8 richest nations - the G8 - pledged an additional $50 billion annually to poor countries by 2010, half of it for Africa.
Already our money is getting results. Thank you America for putting over half a million people on life-saving AIDS medicines and leading an effort that has provided 8 million anti-malaria bednets and treated 1 million people with TB. And thank you for pushing our governments to use this money to provide AIDS drugs to everyone who needs them and basic schooling for every child.
Thank you for being part of a campaign that will cancel the crushing debts of up to 36 countries, and more to come.
Thank you to the people who called on government to act and thank you to the people in government, who started to listen and who will have to make sure we keep these historic promises and build upon them.
We must keep the positive pressure on our leaders if we want them to follow through. Americans must give these leaders permission to invest just a fraction more of the budget in what we know works, from $5 mosquito nets to drug treatments that cost pennies apiece.
If ONE thing is certain for 2006, this campaign will keep growing, your voice will grow louder, your compassion and thirst for justice will keep saving more lives. By 2008, ONE needs to have 5 million supporters, each of us doing what we can, learning more, telling friends, calling Congress.
Take one minute and ask three friends to join ONE and make the impossible possible with you in 2006.
Beating AIDS and extreme, stupid poverty, this is our moon shot. This is our generation's civil rights struggle, our anti-apartheid movement. This is what the history books will remember our generation for — or blame us for, if we fail. We can't afford to fail nor will we.
We've come a long way, and we've got a long way to go. Now let's really get started.
Thank you,
Bono

haha. i joined www.one.org kasi. why don't you? it wouldn't hurt a bit. just shove some time. haha.

btw, the first one that i received was from papa brad. but i don't think he's THAT hot. tom cruise's hotter than he is. haha. vuzever. :D

yeah, register and you get that cute white band at the side of ur blog. the one up there. haha. it's cute. :D

anyway, so i encourage u guys to join it 'cause you really can help other people in need. :D

well, season's greetings!

4 more days 'till xmas!

Monday, December 19, 2005

oh yeah, bout my chrimbo gift

the skirt is so gorgey...it was the first mini skirt i've owned in years...the last one that i had was when i was in 3rd grade. now i'm in the 6th grade. like, what the hell?

i still don't believe my mom and yayas/ates when they tell me that it looks good on me. i've been so conscious with what i'm wearing. ionno wassup wit my legs....well, they're hairy and mi mom thinks it's normal, so she doesn't let me shave them till i'm in highschool. so how the hell am i going to wear that skirt? it's so gorgey pa naman. crap. she doesn't even let me use the veet thingy. so sad. :(( i shud wear them when mi beshie and i go out. try it, maybe? haha... :D...well, maybe they DO look good!

anyway, bout the blouse and the skirt, they each cost P999.oo. i bought it in kamiseta, SM Southmall branch. the blouse is gorgey too. :D :D

the house is one heckuva mess!

unbelievable but true, our house is a mess....

a person like me, living within mess? [vuzever, vicky...nagda'drama ka nanaman eh!]

no really. haha. i am so frustrated. our house is such a mess. especially my room..

crap. haha. sana mom wud have the maid's station fixed up. my ates stay sa room. so i stay with mah mom! eh i wanna feel my bed...ONCE AGAiN! i nver got to sleep in it since my dad freakin left. ack. ack. but it's fun having them around. crappy!

i wanna clean our room, but it's no use since magugulo rin eh!

and i'm procrastinating again...tinatamad ako! waha! :D

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

chrimbo gift.

Christmas gift from Kamiseta...From my mom...

More later!

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author/series of the month: louise rennison/georgia nicolson series

u may wonder what the hell chrimbo means...
it's english [as in great britain] slang for christmas...
i learned it from the georgia nicolson series by louise rennison... u can visit it HERE!
.....the series include....[in order]
"angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging"
"on the bright side, i'm now the girl friend of a sex god"
"knocked out by my nunga-nungas"
"dancing in my nuddy-pants"
"away laughing in a fast camel"

okay, so u might think...."WHAT THE?! WHAT KiND OF TiTLES ARE THOSE?"...well, tell you what, u have to read the book to find out why they are titled that way. most of them are slang, but don't worry, georgia puts a glossary at the end of the book.
at first, i found it intriguing because of the title of the second book: "on the bright side, i'm now the girl friend of a sex god"...i was currently reading the princess diaries series at that time. eh, i wanted to finish the whole series before starting a new book, so i held on...
the one time, we went to rockwell... eh diba may fully-booked dun? [BEWARE: u MIGHT GET LOST.BOOK HATERS RETREAT! nakakahilo dun! it's like a labyrinth!] so we stayed there. eh my mom was meeting a friend, so i got to read. i had no worries "baby-sitting" my sis since she just stayed in one place. eh, i was done reading the last book of princess diaries, so i finally got the urge to pick up the book. they were in one table, along with princess diaries books and a few more. then, when i looked at the back of one book, i realized na series pala xa. so i looked for book one, which was hard to distinguish. all i did was look at the other's back covers, then meron namang nakalagay nang title...ah basta.u'll get it. when i managed, i picked up the glorious book angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging....

i started reading it... the book was candidly done. it was like, close to reality! georgia's opening messages were like: "hello american chums!" and things like that. she talks about how different british-english is from american-english...she even laughed at what fanny meant. she talked about how the titles of her books were changed due to language barriers. hahah...

what the critics said were true...i advise u, dnt read it all alone or u'll look crazy [take it from someone who knows] i was giggling and laughing while reading those books!

promise, if u buy these books, it's money well spent. well, if you're a fan of reality-based, teen books....it is...and if you're looking for a fun read.but for the mystery and adventure type of readers...i dnt suggest it... u'l get annoyed... haha...

well, that's it for now! boring, book review, eh? well, i'm not yet done, hahah! just w8 for the next post! ;)

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

deng

ack. annoying the last last post that i made, the
tags won't work! talk about annoying. ack. ack ack.

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i'm only 12 and God does this to me.what more if i turn 21?

God. God. God.

my heart just broke into tiny bits and pieces.

i can see the red ones on the floor.

ha ha.

whatever.

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Friday, December 16, 2005

it hurts.

tears welling up in my eyes

i don't know what to do

why did i have to love you

a burst of emotions coming right at me

a tear strolls down my cheeks

thinking why this happend to me

i did nothing wrong

why did u do this?

so it was a lie

but it hurted a lot

you don't know how much u mean to me

how much i wanted to have u in my arms.

but now, it's all over

go out and leave

leave me all alone

just the way i was before you came

[music: una - spongecola]

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can't believe it.

i did that in less than 5

minutes. one of the fastest, yet longest poems that i made.

i guess that's the effect of a burst of
emotions.

i can't believe you,nicole.

why in the world did you do this? just a simple reply:
yes, i'm going.

it may seem so low, but it means a lot!

naaalala mo, we always planned to go out as
bestfriends.

lagi nalang 'di natutuloy.

pwede ka, d naman ako pde.

pde naman aq, d ka pde.

we never meet schedules.

ngaun namang pwede taung dalawa, wala kang
sinabi.

hindi tuloy ako nakasama.

hindi ko alam kung bat aq nasasaktan ng
ganito.

ewan ko.

salot lang naman aq sainyong tatlo dba?

so u dnt kno how to prioritize?

friends over bestfriend, huh?!

sinong gago ang mag-iicp ng ganun?

sana pala u never became my bestfriend.

wala rn pala aq sau eh.

u dnt deserve it.

yes, i'm bringing up the drama again.

kxe lagi mo akong sinasaktan!

bestfriend kita.

wala kang kwentang bestfriend.

lagi nalang ganito.

puro sorry, what happens?

NOTHING.

sawa na ko.

u wudnt get me with ur sweet
words.

cause u've turned my heart to a stone.

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Saturday, December 10, 2005

i am inspired

i am inspired today, from the first letter to this post up to someplace where i will mark, it is wholly writtenin notepad. i just don't want all the ideas, thoughts and emotions fade away which always hinders me jotting down in my blog.

i have a lot of reasons to be inspired. [okay, starting from the open bracket, up to the last letter, it was written in the blogger create-a-post page... :D]

i am inspired because...

REASON NUMBAH WAN:
in the December issue of the Candy magazine, five bloggers were featured, namely Tiepee Pura, Maita Ponce [wait a sec, isn't she from the CCOC{candy council of cool} 5?], JC Cruz, Jenna Genio and Lloyda Lim. tiepee pura's blog, [purplechocolates.blogspot.com], whom i have visited before, as she was featured in candy before, as blogger of the month. her post amused me, as it was about her struggle to find junkfood, something i can't live without. it just inspired me to write, knowing that blog posts aren't always about being perfect, it's about being YOU. a hundred and one percent you. it's not about showing people what you want to be, you don't have to be plastic. people love people who are true to themselves. you are you. also, i learned from tiepee that life is a box full of chocolates (and no, it's not full of surprises), it's sweet, depending on the flavor and ingredients. do you get what i mean?! haha... :D .... oy der, i forgot the other bloggers. peace be wit u guys. hehe. i haven't checked their blogs yet, but i'm betting they're all equally uhm...wasaworD? good?! naww....uhm...(i wuna use a good word. para mukhang smart. kafal. haha...) original, creative and unique. haha....there you go! Maita's blog : [tabulas.com/~spectaculah01] Jenna's : [livejournal.com/users/jenvg]JC's [thisisjeanne.blogspot.com] and Llyoda's [livejournal.com/users/entermywardrobe].... kakainggit sila!
REASON NUMBAH TOO
i am happy. i don't know why. i just am! :) haha.
REASON NUMBAH THWEE
wala lang. :) . kidding. well, to celebrate myself! because i have been a good momma to my kids(atleast for today, in my point of view!) (heck, don't think i am a real momma. they just call me that way. :D ) , and an angel to my bestfriend(apparently, he's the dad of some of my kids. it's either he knows that he's a dad but doesn't know that i'm the mom or that he doesn't know that he's a dad but my kids are his. VUTEVER! HAHAHA). haha. [off-topic: oh yeah! i have new pics! my neighbor/über-close/child hood friend just lent me their blue-tooth stick, so i can upload my pics to my not-so-new, super gas gas 3230 fone. so a shout out to ate moi moi!mwahuggies] a good momma to my kids because while we were taking our school's h.s. exam in the high-school with newly-airconditioned classrooms, i lent my baby [angelique] my jacket, which our adviser asked us to bring, since she was anticipating cold classrooms. even though it was not so cold, it was still nice of me to give it to her [read: kAFAL !] because she was like freezing there. i don't know, but i felt good. also, i spent good uhm...60 pesos?! in a jumbo sized pepsi drink in taters, for all of us to share. i could have used it for something else, but i was so nice so i bought the biggest one. hahaha... on the other hand, a darling to my bestfriend nicole because i offered my time [*COUGH*COUGH*] to buy his gift for his[oh yes, apparently, there's a guy named nicole] beloved crush, 741mnb [parang plate number.hahah.] namely *CENSORED* . just wait till the 16th. lemme see if i can tell you who. i am so mean.haha. uy! it's hard kaya, even frustrating eh, kasi we were in atc nga dba, and there was no blue magic there, so i just looked for a good place to buy a cute stuffie for his crushie. ang cute.haha. eh when we [we as in angelique and i] commuted and dropped at SM, we dropped by blue magic and there, i saw cheap but sooper cute stuffies. even though he's going to give it to someone whose place i want to have, i still want the best for him eh[aww.nax]. m so frustrated! haha. but vutever, i'm not such a darling after all, after u find out what i did with the excess money. >:p . haha... peace.
REASON NUMBAH FOR
Angelique and I commuted on our own for the first time! I was so paranoid and praning kxe there might be you know, theives and snatchers, but it'll be stupad to steal with the sun shining so bright and everyone can see you. besides, i'll knock 'em off if they lay a finger on me! haha. For first-timers, here's the route to commute from ATC to Las Piñas [generally, SM since everybody's rendezvous is SM Southmall].
go to the overpass [the one near nat'l...dun sa may side na un] and cross to the other side
take a jeep to alabang-zapote. pay....i dunnoe how much! then enjoy the ride
then voila! SM!
hehe... peace.
[8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8][8*8]ACTIVITIES FOR THE DAY...

1. HS entrance exam in SBCA. uhm... 7:45 - 9:30 sumthng. ata. not sure. basta it took us only an hour or so. Grabe, there were specific time limits per subtest, when miss reminds us that it's time for the next test, we were like in the next test after that, or the next, next test. So the original schedule of 8-11 am was disregarded na, because everyone was out before 11. we went to atc at about 10. I fooled around with my ipod, bugged nicole and fooled around again.

2. at about 10:30 or so, we went to ATC . My momma picked me up together with Ange, then we set off to town. Momma treated us to Seattle's best [we ordered the carbonara and the white milk thingy thing.no offense, but i am a certified starbuxer! if there is such a thing] then left us there. She left me 500 pesos. Tell you what, yung natira dun sa 500, barya nalang.haha

3. Went to bearhuggs to search for the gift for the plate-number-girl [741mnb] found nothing.

4. Went upstairs to go to timezone.There, Cat [my bebe rn!] screamed : "MOMMY!" while we were walking past KFC. We saw Angeli and Abi there, eating. Then we set off to... i dunno. we just roamed around!

5. We kept on searching for the gift, till i found the dec. issue of candy. i was joyfully joyful [HAH] because there wasn't any new issue of candy at the stand near KFC. Then, we dropped by a store which mostly sells stuffies.Dreamcatcher, I think! There, we found the gift for PNG.hahah.... It's a wyt teddy bear with a fink dress...icho cute. haha. cheap ni nicole, 300 lang kxe bngy eh.kidding. peace.haha

6. passed by bench because angeli bought perfume/cologne. para kaming ewan dun, angelique and cat like sprayed [off-topic: OY! PANALO SI NENE! WAHAHAHAHAH. ;p] men's cologne sa isang racerback dun, with the de lasalle colors, i forgot what was in there. they sprayed it then they smelled it. wahahahahahahahah! :D

7. bought movie tickets for just like heaven [movie review tomorrow.hey! GOOD MORNING! it's 12 na pala!so movie review later. haha] starring reese witherspoon and mark ruffalo. it was one helluba movie. i love it! cho nakakakilig! highly recommended. haha.

8. powerbooks. we read samthng samthng. i was nuts because i was looking for away laughing on a fast camel by louise rennison but it wasn't there. i checked again and voila! i found it! wee! haha. m so happy, so very happy. hahah. vutever. i love the whole series. completely hilarious. [www.georgianicolson.com]

9.commuted to SM

10. went to...sam place. then bought a cross-stitch needle and black thread. sakto! 301! haha. then dropped by to bloo magic

11. went home with ange, naglakad lang kami! it's near lang naman eh! hehe.

that's all for today. alabshoolotz!

*vickee*

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