ta-da! welcome to my world. :)
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
grabe.

Tinatamad ako mag'edit ng multiply page ko. Which is rather rare. Kasi usually kapag ganyan ang kailangan ko gawin, I always jump on the challenge. Ngayon, I feel drained. Mabilis nga ang connection ng internet dito, pero mabagal mag'process yung PC. I'd rather dial-up right now. Waah. I miss my mom. I.badly.want.to.go.home.

Anyways, I haven't greeted you guys Merry Christmas! Oh ayan na. Hahah. I only manage to do multiply-hopping. Yun lang. I feel lazy. Grabe sayang ang oras. I still have so many projects to do.

Well, I'm glad to atleast feel like home. Grabe. I don't know what would happen to me kung wala 'tong PC na 'to. And yeah, the people who are texting me right now. You know who you are na.

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Okay. So yesterday was a really really crazy day. I don't think I could hear anything anymore. Kidding. Ang ingay talaga ng mga relos on my father's side. And they know it. Sure thing. One of my lolas even asked me,

Lola Ninang: Hindi ganito sa mother's side niyo no?
Ako: *nod*
Lola Ninang: Prim and proper kasi sila eh...

Well, hindi naman prim and proper...pero ganon tlaga sa mother's side. Siguro, that's why I enjoy them more. Plus, I'm the eldest sa cousins on the mother's side. Hahah. They ALL stay in London naman. Daya. I miss them, Matty and Gaia. Hahah.

Pero I appreciate them, I really do. They're a fun and noisy bunch. THEY'RE A BIG FAMILY, what can I say. 10 siblings sila lola! Sila mommy, the extended family is big din, but it's diff talaga.

And then the lolas and lolos were telling me about their stories when they were kids. How they would work, how the would do this, that. It was fun listening to them. Ako ngiti, nod, smile, nod...hanggang dun lang. Nahiya. San ka. Now that was when I showed a side na super-shy, super-quiet. They identified me with my mom. That made me miss her more. Awww.

Momma's kid. Yeah. I loobe loobe her. She gave me a new ipod! HAHA. Spoiled little kid. Actually, she gave me a new iPod nano, and then the Love at First Glow by JLo. Grabe, sumigaw talaga ako when I saw the iPod. It was a HUGE surprise! Kasi nga diba she went to the US for a week. Tapos I asked her to buy an iPod for me there... and then when she came back, ako pa nagbukas ng bags niya and stuff, wala talagang iPod! So siyempre my hopes were crushed. Asim. I kept on bugging her to buy me an iPod. And then she said, sige, the next time I go to the US. Pag wala sa mood, sasabihin niya lang, keep it simple, my dear. Favorite line niya yun eh... And then come the opening of gifts, I saw one balot parang may bagay sa loob tapos tinakpan ng special paper. Tapos ang dami daming japanese paper na crumpled. Then when I saw my new baby, I screamed talaga... Wow.

Wala pang songs yung iPod, kasi hindi latest version ng iTunes yung nasa bahay. Wala pa kasi internet. Traffic happens this time of the year eh. Every year yan. So I'm kind of, well, used to it. So...ayun. :D

happy hols!


Thursday, December 21, 2006
gladness and laptops.

Freedom starts...NOW.

I'm actually, verry glaad that we're going to have a Christmas vacation. Which is, well, a first. For me, atleast. I used to love school. I still love school, but I guess I don't look forward to it as much. Before, I'd be damned if I miss a school day. Now I don't even care if I miss a day of school. No wait, I do care. It's just that it's OK for me to miss school, even if I'm not really sick. (insert snicker.haha.)

I'm glad that I'm free from the homework, and quizzes, and the boring lectures. More than glad to be free from the prison called my mind. Who, by the way, is working overtime lately. My head hurts from time to time, but nothing really serious, I guess.

Sigh. I really do wish I always have a laptop with me. Sometimes kasi, strange thoughts and opinions appear in my head... Tapos when I do get the chance to be in front of the computer, biglang nawawala lahat.

Cheers to gladness and laptops.


Wednesday, December 20, 2006
frustrated.

Mind you, I lobe it. Haha. It's more faster. And more convenient. Remember I'm still using dial-up. =D

And I'm actually pretty thankful for the new blogger (not beta) hahah, for being not frustrating. Unlike so many things around me.

Say my iPod mini. You know what, I think it's just begging me to take him to the iPod hospital, wherever that is. Or maybe it's just waiting for me to cut its air supply and to send it to iPod heaven. Which will probably be in...hmmm.... iPod hell would be in Japan. They sell iPods in 7-11 outlets. Can you imagine? Hahah.

I am also frustrated with myself. Why can't I be contented with everything? Why am I so burara? Why do I keep on asking questions? Why don't I know how to save money? Why do I have to wear eyeglasses? Why do I have such hairy genes? HAHAHAHAH. I'll shut up.

What else am I frustrated with? (Might as well put them all down. Release. LOL.). Hmmm. Say, the PC. It doesn't have enough space in its hard disk to allow us to install the Sims 2 Holiday Edition. They suck. :(

I was never contented. Why can't I be? Do I really have to crave for so much in my life?


Tuesday, December 19, 2006
ang asiim.

Ang asim ng buhay. Talaga. Pinaglalaruan ako ng mga tao at bagay-bagay sa paligid ko. Nakakainis. Ano ba yaan.

Haaay. I can only do nothing but siggh.

Wala na talaga ako magagawa. Bakit ang daya daya noh? Ang daya talaga. You can't live a life that's all so happy. Why can't we all live happy lives? Bakit kelangan ng problema? Oo nga naman, to keep us stronger.

Haay. Sorry hah.

I'm getting pissed off. Really ticked off.


Monday, December 18, 2006
don't.

You don't go around, assuming certain things without actually being sure. I'm practicing full hypocrisy saying this, but you just don't. Also, on the same note, you don't go around calling someone a bitch, if you're going to be one yourself. I'm sorry. I'm just so angry, I can't help it. I thought this whole thing's okay and settled, and then it reappears.

I don't know why I'm so affected with such a thing naman. Tanga. Hangal. Bobo. Haha. Ang babaw na bagay na aapektuhan ka.

Eh bakit ikaw, naaapektuhan ka rin naman ah.


Saturday, December 16, 2006
christmas gift...to my mom. HAHA.

I just finished posting in my LJ. Haha. Diary ko yun eh. Although some few people may get to access it because they just found it somewhere over the net, no one knows the link to it. Besides me, of course.

Anyways.

I feel like such a wreck. Haha. Yoko na magdrama. Sus. Wala naman mangyayari eh. Mapagtawanan pa ako eh. Hahah. Wala rin naman na id'drama.

Let's be happy. Ok Ok.

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If money, power and whatever were no object, this is what I would give to my...
Mom.

Hugh Jackman. Or some saucy, loyal, non-DOM British/French/Italian/EUROPEAN guy. Those who wish to apply may do so. Must love kids. Must have dimples. Must look European. HAHA. Must have loads of moolah. Kidding about the last one.

But really. If you Hugh Jackman were a lot younger, I'd have posters of him up over my ceiling. Hahaha. He's cute naman ah.


Friday, December 15, 2006
all i want for christmas...

...is you.

Hahah. Kumakanta lang. Tell you what, I think it's a really sweet song.

Anyways, Christmas is getting near na talaga. I haven't even realized it. Haven't even bought gifts for people. I don't feel like giving though. I don't see the logic in giving something in Christmas when it doesn't even feel like Christmas. Yeah, I do agree with Tina's slogan sa blog niya. Christmas is not a date, it is a state of mind. Or something like that.

I want the new MacBook!!! Screeeaam. Rawrr. $1099.



Damn. Look at what it's got! A built-in camera. I'm smitten. Plus it's got iLife, iMovie, GarageBand (to record podcasts) in it. Wow. Now THAT'S a dream. It's got:

  • 13.3-inch glossy display
  • 1.83GHz or 2.0GHz Intel Core 2 Duo
  • Up to 2GB memory
  • Up to 200GB hard drive
  • Built-in iSight camera
  • Intel Graphics Media Accelerator 950
  • Slot-loading optical drive
  • Built-in AirPort Extreme
  • FireWire 400 and two USB 2.0 ports
  • Gigabit Ethernet
  • Bluetooth 2.0+EDR

It's probably got thrice the speed of our PC. I'm smitten.

Now I DO have to give the URL of my blog to my long-lost ninongs and ninangs. Add my Lolo and Uncles in London. =D


Wednesday, December 13, 2006
nababaliw na yata ako.

I think I'm going nuts. I feel really weird right now. I'm playing a game with rules I don't know. I'm playing a game with someone I don't even think I know anymore. Grabe, I really don't know what to do. I feel so confused, and even with the nicest, most trustworthy people around me, I still feel so alone. My mind keeps on drifting away. My eyes drift all over the place. My mind's constantly racing. Ang weird talaga ng pakiramdam. I don't like how it feels.

I hate it when things look up, and then they suddenly take a nose dive for the bad.

Nothing's changed in school. Except for the fact that things are going on fast-forward mode, and the next thing I'll probably know is I'll be seating right in front of here, writing something. Probably about how annoyed I am, how fat I'm turning out to be, how in-love I am with someone, no one really knows.

I know the world won't stop for a split second for whatever awful I'm encountering right know. I'd doubt they'd think of it as awful. I'm overreacting, that's what.

nakakainis.


Saturday, December 09, 2006
unknown purpose and discontentment.

To say that I am a discontented person could win as understatement of the year. It reflects in everything I do. Even in my layouts. I keep on switching from one to another. I keep on viewing on it like something's missing.

I've always wanted more. I never knew how to make out of what I have.

Yeah, it's human nature. But what I'm going through right now is...well rather very new.

I don't know what to do with my life. Life-wise, that's very scary. Yeah, sure I want to have a happy family and be married. That's probably what 75% of the people my age are saying. I want to be rich. Everyone wants to be rich. What do I really want? Do I want 4 kids? 2? 1? Who's ideal for me? What course do I want to take? What career track do I plan on choosing? Where will I study?

I feel like I have some purpose that is not yet known to me. I may leave this world without knowing what that purpose is.

I'm scared that I might be losing my faith.

I'm scared of what lies ahead. I might be unprepared for it. I'm scared that I may die without leaving a mark on people's lives. I'm scared of what I'm feeling. I'm going through so many new things without even knowing it.

How am I supposed to prepare for that?

Is the unexpected still unexpected when you expect it?


malay.

I can't say anything anymore with the security of you not seeing what I write. Haha. Should have kept that in mind while I was starting off. I'm in a shit creek without a paddle. Awful, really. Thing is, other people may or may not have a clue about it. But whether they know it or they don't, they can't do anything. Many people have been trying to convince me out of what I'm doing to myself, but I try battling them. I try to defend myself.

Malay mo hindi ikaw. Malay mo siya. Malay mo ikaw. Ano ba alam ko? Drama? Oo, sure. Hindi naman kasalanan na mag-drama minsan ah. Life needs a little drama sometimes.

The thing is, I've resorted to this blog into telling you how I felt because I had no other way of telling you. Talk to you? Who am I kidding? Text? Betcha won't reply. YM? Ditto.

So where do I go? Here.


Friday, December 08, 2006
nothing and anything.

I want to write something, but I'm afraid that something will lead to another, and I don't want to go through the whole shit again.

I want to write something else, but I'm scared that others might find it offensive.

Wow, I'm restricted to writing something decent and clean and non-offensive in my blog.

Something's terminally wrong with me.


Tuesday, December 05, 2006
danton's crib.

Shewt. Today is hella fun. It'd be one day I would like to happen again. Yeah. You can have LOADS of fun with the most unexpected people, you'd really never know.

Well, we had our Science and English longtests today. Damn. Now I'd really get bad grades. Say Science for example. Pota ang dali nga eh, MALI PA YUNG FORMULA!!! HOW STUPIIIID. With English naman. Super labo. Merong items na hindi kasama sa pointers. I bet Miss would bonus them. Yess. It was really...malabo. Grabe. One part was like, WHAT THE HELL?!

Anyways. We decided on practicing on Danton's house about a couple of days ago. Supposedly, buong cast and crew (hahahahahahahah) pupunta. Eh wala sina Aivi, Josh and Paul. Shewt. Haha. D tuloy maayos yung rundown. Minadali pa, 'cause we were going to watch Love Actually in their ultra-huge flat screen tv. DAAAYMN. Ingget ingget ingget. Shut up. Shut up. HAHA. Pano yan, sa Thursday na yung play. I guess we just have to ask Miss Marcos to reschedule. Madaya rin kasi eh. The other groups would present the following week. That's gonna be unfair. They'd get more practice eh. Yeaaah.

Grabe, laughtrip. Especially when the boys started jumping on the pool. Grabe. Heavy gravitas. Tapos we had a tour of Danton's HUMONGOUS house. No shit pare. Probably has 3 storeys or something. May basement, where their chill out room was located. May bar rin. Andun kami sa chill out room. Supposedly watching Love Actually, unti we all agreed to stay outside and fool around nalang. May attic pa. Ingget ingget ingget.

After the whole damn ordeal, KAIN KAIN. Hahah. Muntik na makuha ni Ziggy yung plate ko ng Palabok. WAHAHAHAh. Kaderder.

After nun, town kami. Gala gala. Grabe mga 6 ehhrr 7 na nun. Laughtrip nga eh. Pero it's not the same without the guys.
Ayun. Pictures nalang. =D Might make this post too long.



more pictures: 'ere


Monday, December 04, 2006
you're just jealous.

Hahaha. Survived a long, long day full of bad hair and bitches. Woohoo. Bitches. Heeell yeah.

Ehem. Anyways.

So we had our Long Tests today. Oh God I suck ass. HAHAH. But really, binaboy ko lang talaga 'to. I won't be surprised if I get low grades on this one. Ironically, ako pa yung nagbigay ng pointers sa S.S. Ako pa yung baboy na baboy. Pero it's really cool with me. I'd be more frustrated if I get low grades but I tried my best. Haha. I love that thing about me.

Basta, baboy na siya. I swear. Pero you know what, I'm gonna do good this Quarters. I promise. Yun lang naman bumawi sa grades ko the last quarter eh. Good luck nalang this quarter. Kaya pala ang hirap raw ng 3rd quarter. It may be the shortest, but HELL, it's got the hardest lessons. Gipit pa sa time. Aww shewt.

After the LTs, we decided on visiting Cams on Asian Hospital. Haha. We were like, crammed at the back of an Adventure. Funyeta, laughtrip! Hyperness solid. HAHA. Ayun, tawa tawa lang with Janroe, Carl, Renzo, Alex and Princess. Jethro kasi ehh, nasa harap. Too baaad. Haha. Then we bought balloons for Cams, nagaway panga kami kung anong balloon eh. Tapos ayun we went up her room. Tawa tawa, hug hug, usap usap, ganun. Hanggang umalis na sila Carl, Renzo, Alex and the rest of the guys na sumabay dun sa carpool nila Cams. So ayun, naiwan si Ate Kayle Godinez, close friend ni Cams. She was really cool. Makulit. Laughtrip panga eh. Tawa kami ng tawa.

Edi ayun, sadly we had to go home, kasi sasabay kami ni Seyy with Jethro papunta ng ATC. Andun, Seyy and I ate, usap usap, then we moved to Starbucks. Ay shet kain ulet! HAHAHA. EH matagal kami nagusap eh. Hey, talking can be tiring.

And then yun, usap parin kami ni Seyy, and then hinatid ko siya, and then voila, I am here.

Mom's going home already!! YES. HAHAH


Pictures. HAHA. 1st one: Jet and Janroe fooling around with the curtain sa may door. I and supposedly, Sey. And then Jet. Stolen. Ata. :))


Sunday, December 03, 2006
pride heals, mehn.




If she does say something that hurts you, they are only words. They can't hurt you. Pride heals.
Wala ako pinaparinggan. Ay meron pala. Yung mga nagmurahan sa status nung isang araw. Parang aso at cat. Hahahahahahahah. Peace maties.
Read the comic excerpt. Many people don't get what it says, I don't either.




Funnily, though, it makes sense.


WHAT? hahaha.





credits to: Rachel Nabors Check out her comics at www.gurl.com


where did i go wrong, i lost a friend...

somewhere along in the bitterness. I would have stayed up with you all night, then I'd know how to save a life.

I spent the day with my dad. It's the usual every-other-week thing. Dati every week. Ngayon every other week. Not that I am hugely disappointed. Haha. Ok nga eh. I get to spend Saturdays and Sundays with my mom. Eh kapag si mom kasama, no holds barred. We reach Mall of Asia, Eastwood, Rockwell, Greenbelt! Woosh. That's why I miss her a lot nga eh. We didn't have our every week girl's day out. I'm thrilled that she'd be goin home already. Grabe one week lang siya wala. Hahaha. Oh well, she'd be back by tomorrow night. Yey.

Anyways.

We watched Happy Feet today. Gaaahhhd it's the cutest movie. And one of the funniest. It's not cheesy too, the way animated movies tend to be. Is sooo pani. Bery. There was a part na...ewan ko...I got attached to that part. It was so sad. And in a very unusual way, I really relate to Mumble. Haha. Cute kiddo. Woot. Amen to tap dancing!


Saturday, December 02, 2006
chilling with the doods.

HAH! It's December already (Hello, Vicky, ngayon mo lang napansin?). So hell yeah, I have a new damn layout, or a damn new layout, whichever comes first. I lobe it a lot. :D :D

If only our dial-up (I've said this, and I'll say it again...I'M NOT USING THE PC WITH DSL! If you're wondering why I put up with this, well, I don't know. I just got used to it, it doesn't even bother me anymore.) would speed up, and I can put an mp3 in here. Aww shucks. Oh well. I find it cute anyway. And incredibly girly. Different from the previous i caught fire layout.

Anyways.

Why did I choose pink, and Save Room by John Legend as certain themes for my blog? Ewan. Haha. Just so happens that Save Room has been my LSS last week, and ayon. Since it has landed in my iTunes, it has been the top player among the Recently Added. LOL. Bakit pink? Well, I was listening to Save Room eh tapos a certain image popped in my mind...Eh the one in my header (look up) is the one that popped up. Bagay naman eh. I mean if you listen to the certain John Legend song I'm talking about, it's more of chillax. Eh hallo, what's the girl in the sofa doing? Chilling. and Relaxing. HAHA.

Btw, astig nga eh. 'Cause I don't usually like John Legend's songs. Natawa lang ako dito. Tpos LSS pa.

It was ripped off by raw eh. Sabi nila sa Good Times with MO sa Magic 899. Ohwell.

Hmm, what else? Haha. The girl in my header is defying gravity. Oye.

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Anyways, I was chilling with my doods kanina. My doods...lol. Kapatid ko lang yan. And her guy friend. Guy friend. Not boy friend. But that can also happen. Pero wag. Bata pa yang mga yan. My sister's like, only 10...and her guy friend's like...12 na. Haha. Pero we're all just neighbors for a long time.

They were playing Eureka Seven. Pwetness ang laughtrip nila...

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Tae ng tililing.

WAAAH. LONG TEST NGA PALA SA MONDAY. Potek. I'm wasteeng taym, my dear. I shouldn't be. Hoy. I should keep up with my grades. SAYANG!

Sige.

Tatawa muna kami ni Lia.


Friday, December 01, 2006
everyone's havin a bad bad day.

Wow. Everyone's like, having a grey cloud over their heads. And to find it ironic that there's a terrible storm coming. Wow. I'm having my expected guilt attack already.

What's wrong with you guys? One day you're this, and the next thing you know you're effing monsters. Explain that.

You had no idea about how she felt eh. Who gave you the right to do that?