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Thursday, November 10, 2005
how do you know if you love him?

music:
sandalan [6cyclemind]'->good song....to nico from me...<-"

oh my gosh.... am i.... in love?!

serious question...how do you know if you love a guy? i'm only a 12-year old, how am i supposed to know? the past guys i so-called "fell in love with" were just plain infatuation...a crush.

now, the question is...do i love him?

i mean, when i call him up to discuss a problem, and he knows it, he would always make me laugh... was that in purpose or is he really that way? i mean, he would always change the subject... and would always make me laugh... with him, i'm comfortable, i'm happy, i'm safe. even if we don't talk at school[weird, huh?],or atleast not the "bestfriend" kind of thing, when we leave the school, it's all entirely different...there, he puts the role of bestfriend to full mode... sometimes, just 75% of it, but still...

and now, he wasn't at school today... he was at this consortium with other students...

suprisingly, i was missing him...

i was napapraning and stuff...

it seemed that my life would be boring without him... because he never failed to put a smile on my face...when i talk to him over the phone, i was intending to tell him my problem, then the next thing you know, i was teasing him...that would happen always that when i put the phone down, it's like "ano ba yan? he got me again!" ...i never even get to tell him my problem...i just forget about it!

life seems so easy with him...

and to honestly tell you, he was my crush... so it's not feasible that i wouldn't fall for him... he was my seatmate when i was in grade 4 and we were pretty close...so why not?

he's a really great guy...funny, smart and...really nice! hahah... gentleman most of the time... though sumtyms he can really get into my nerves especially when he teases me...

so now, the question still is... do i love him?!

only time will tell....