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Sunday, April 16, 2006
useless.

I feel so crappy and angry and jealous.. Triple merde and poo.

I know nothing's perfect. But why is it that some people are just born with such beautiful lives? Why are some born with such "perfect" features? Why are some born with useful talents? WHY are they born with such and I'm not? I don't get it! I'm ugly and fat and I totally don't know what my talent is. I don't know who I am! I have no identity. It's selfish, I know, but I just can't help it! I mean, Why?

Now I feel like crying. I feel so stupid and useless. I know it's entirely selfish for me to ask, but why can't I have what they have? I don't understand the importance of life in this world. I actually don't mind being shot right now. I mean it. I feel so sad. I feel utterly useless. I don't know what's going on with my life. And then I shed one tear.

You might not get how depressed I feel. It figures you might have never felt the same way. Might be that you guys are one of the people that I mentioned above (and I mean no offense). Some might think I' m having "that" time of the month, and I'm just being such a b*tch. Some may think it's bullshit.

But hell, is there anything that I can do?

I can't help how I feel.

And if you try to stop me from what I'm doing, I am going to kill you.

Then the next 6 words dictate the conclusion of this post:

This is where my posts ends.