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Saturday, June 10, 2006
sickness.

Have you ever felt so secure and understood with someone that you don't even know so well? How about feeling happy? I don't understand. I say I'm not, but they say I am. Who should I believe? I mean, I sure enjoy talking to him, and it sends ultra-chills in my spine when I'm around him. He's so different from the other people. He does listen, and he also talks. He tells of experiences, feelings, moods and opinions about numerous stuff. He doesn't talk to me just for the sake of it. Maybe he is, but I'd doubt it. I can't emphasize how different he is. How special he is--atleast, for me.

We do like the same stuff, watch the same stuff. And he is very interesting. I find him really smart too. Being with him, is having the best of both worlds (whichever worlds that they are).

Oh darn, maybe they're right.

I suppose that's how it is when you're in love.

But how am I supposed to know? I can't fall in love, I'm only 12, for Christ's sake. It's a huge "DOI" in my face. Plus, I hugely doubt that he likes me as well.

I'm so tired of hoping, wishing and wanting. I actually want to get something that I want.

But really, undermining the circumstances (I just love that phrase.), it'll lead to another frail heart. I want to stop, I hope I can. I believe I can. I just don't have the will to do so.

So maybe I just really really like him. Who knows?

God, I need a visit to the psychologist.