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Thursday, September 07, 2006
blank.

Yes, we do have our PC back. Great! The sad thing is, that it literally had ALL my files off. From every, single, itty-bitty file that I created, downloaded, ripped off the internet to the pictures I took from yesterday were all ERASED. Now I don't know if I would be ecstatic or sad.

Wow, for the first time ever, I can't say anything. Maybe I'm frustrated, mad, happy, excited, I don't know. For the first time, I feel so blank. I feel so bleak. I don't know what's going on with me. Maybe I'm sad, because it's kind of difficult to discover that he doesn't usually talk to me, and when he does, he makes it in a pa-bara way. Which is, of course, tres sad. Or maybe I'm mad, because he had the nerve to tell me that.

What the fresh hell. Call the doctor, I'm not making any sense.

But the weird thing is, even if I'm not making sense, even if I don't have anything on my mind, I feel like I wouldn't want to stop pressing on the keys of this keyboard. Somehow, I want to write about something. Something I don't know, or probably haven't touched. Something stored deep in me.

How would I know. I'm 12, not 21. (Turning thirteen on tuesday, by the way)

I am in shambles right now, and I don't know what to do. I am confused, anxious, scared...and so many more.

It's like, I want to do something...but I don't know what that certain thing is...

I am really not making any sense. I have to stop now.

I'll be back tomorrow.