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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
happy birthday.

I celebrated my birthday yesterday, with the gift of sore throat and colds. Amazing. Also, I got the great gift of stupidity. I'm cursed, like Ella Enchanted, and I have to fight that curse. I have to be free from it.

I did something really stupid today. Actually, I always do. So to celebrate 13-ness, I'll celebrate a small change in me.

I'm a little more older, a little bit wiser, a little bit more mature. So starting tomorrow, September 14, 2006, I'm starting a clean slate. Maybe try to forget about him (or make things appear as if I really AM forgetting about him.), have a new haircut...who knows? I'm open to change. A lot of it. Which, by the way, I need right now. Probably open my eyes and realize that he's just one hell of a bastard, a narrow-minded jack*ss. Or maybe I just see it in that stupid way.

Anyways, HOORAH for me! I managed to control my anger awhile ago. Just like time, it easily diminished. I forgot about it. I soon realized it was a petty thing to be mad about. I mean, if I'm going to change, why not change the way I manage my anger?

Haha. I'm loving the All-American Rejects right now. But nothing beats P!ATD. Solid.

"Your subtleties, they strangle me, I can't explain myself at all."
- It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects

How can 11 words say so much? How can they include so much feelings? Amazing. No wonder they had this business in the bag. I can write 24 stanzas and make it sound stupid. I already did.

From tomorow, until forever, I will be happy. I wouldn't let any guy make me break me. Ever. I think.

"When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight."

Everything ends tonight. The pain, the sorrow, the stupidity. It ends tonight.