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--> i am vicky, i'm only 13, and i reside in the philippines. specifically where? in las piñas. yes, i am near sm southmall.

--> i am currently in my freshman year in san beda college alabang, a proud member of section sixteen, baby!

--> i have started blogging quite a few years back, and this is the only time that i stayed for loyally to one blog for so long.

--> as it is quite obvious, i'm into music, and i would love to learn how to play the drums. i was inspired by the book, she's got the beat which hazel lent me. i've been wanting to play it for 2 years or so, i don't know what's gonna happen. xp
--> i listen to almost everything, except some super slow and sentimental stuff. i love retro music, rnb, contemporary, pop, emo, rock, bossa nova, and when i'm in the mood, metal. which is rarely the case.
--> bands/people i listen to: rage against the machines, snoop dogg, starting line, akon, maroon 5, fall out boy, coheed & cambria, the used, saosin, gwen stefani, fergie, john legend, bowling for soup, new found glory, taking back sunday, avril lavigne, the red jumpsuit apparatus, 30 seconds to mars, a perfect circle, the academy is, acceptance, afi, the ataris, amber pacific, sitti, audioslave, avenged sevenfold, hilera, spongecola, typecast, chicosci, bright eyes, buckcherry, the carpenters *HAHA*, bullet for my valentine, finch, the click five, yellowcard, dashboard confessional, everclear, the fray, from first to last, everclear, gorillaz, green day, imago, incubus, jawbreaker, jimmy eat world, john mayer, keane, join the club, mika, the killers, linkin park, metallica, lilly allen, the mars volta, muse, mcr, nelly furtado, nine inch nails, p!atd, paramore, pearl jam, rites of spring, senses fail, seven, shakira, story of the year, thrice, thursday, weezer, the white stripes...and the list goes on.

--> i have a sibling, and i live with my mum.

--> i have been to london, england; rome, italy; palermo, italy; hongkong, china *?!?* and i plan to go around the world before i turn 50.

--> i am an insightful person, i have an opinion on everything, it's just that i don't voice them out all the time.

--> when i am in a bad mood, i snap at people and argue with them. it's a bad habit i got myself into.

--> i love watching television and movies. i love watching discovery travel and living. sometimes i turn to discovery and to national geographic, only when their documentaries are not about science and animals. i love documentaries about history. world civilization, asian history, as long as it's got something to do with the interesting part of the past, it's cool. (:
--> as for television, i like feel-good shows. i looove veronica mars. i want to be like veronica mars. she's my idol. jk. i used to like the oc, until i went to london and forgot all about it. i love that 70's show, fez is hilarious. sometimes, i watch disney channel with my kid sister who's 10 years old i LOVE nickelodeon, and always will. i miss it though. stupid cable people took it off. it's been months since we've told ourselves that we would switch cables, up to now, it still hasn't happened. bummer? hell yeah.

--> i am not a fashionista. i am usually stuck wearing ordinary and plain stuff, which is so cool with me. i am into the polo/tank-jeans/skirt-havaianas/chucks combination. i am into bags and shoes though. but more into bags. i'm a brand person *i swear to God, i am so sorry*. i love giordano. and i want the new ones in the lacoste line. if only i can afford them all. (: i don't really know what kind of clothes fit me, so... if you would like to offer any help, i would gladly accept.

--> i do love shopping though. everyone loves shopping. even guys, i think.

--> i read a lot. i read hilarious comics, auto-biographies, diaries, novels, and of course, chick lit! (:

--> lovelife, lovelife. i am single...and i'm having fun. it's cool having so many crushes all at the same time. i'm a loser when it comes to love, but it's ok. (:

--> i'm a mom *we're just playing* to many kids, including charmaine, justin, abi, kat, angeli, angelique, barbie, michael, genevieve, mela...and?! i don't know anymore. if is there's anybody i forgot, TELL ME. my dad is paul, and my mom is...the blackboard. wth, right. my husband is...i do not know. n_n

--> i curse a LOT. it's a bad habit. i can be one of the boys. not a girly-girl. but i'm one of the girls too. i can be the best of both worlds. mature and immature at the same time. shy yet outspoken. quiet yet loud. weird yet sometimes i just blend in. I'M ONE WEIRD CHICK. can't do anything. i'm dorky, and it's ok with me. i love being me. i love being the fat, silly, loser me. (:

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Sunday, February 25, 2007

sunday night tv

Well, this is fun. (:

I'm watching Pinoy Big Brother right now, due to my inability to switch channels due to the loss of the remote control.

Well, the housemates were pretty interesting. Haha. Laughtrip yung Austrian guy. LEDERHOSEN KID!!!!!! Wooooot! If you ask me what Lederhosen is, I don't know. So don't ask me. I just read it from Georgia Nicolson's books.

Grabe, they should teach international languages in schools. Requisite dapat. Kaya lang baka dagdag pa sa workload. Pero seryoso ako. They should teach German. It's a funny language. Well not that I'm making fun of the German language...Pero the accent...So...so eccentric! :)

Oh. I love the Australian guy's accent. Lab. I looove the fact that he's a charming kid. Yeah. Nakakatawa lang...when Bianca asked him...something about why he chose a female warrior as a character in Dota (DOTA yung game na nilalaro niya diba? World of Warcraft?! DIBA PAREHO LANG YUN!? =)) =)) =)) ) tapos sabi niya... kasi kamukha mo. I'm like...WHAAAATTT?! Ano raw? pero nakakaflatter din ah.

Grabe. Ang weird kaya nila. What's up with the Police Line thing everytime they start this mini-introduction about the certain housemate's life? POLICE LINE? Diba military yung theme nila? Okkaaay so medyo na'stray sila from the theme. But whatever.

So farr.... I think the housemates are all fairly good looking. Medyo makapal lang yung Nel guy hah. I find him funny, though. exotic beauty. YEAH! Haha.

Ay sus. Hahah. Watching TV at night makes me hungry. I really think I'm going to die early. Grabe. Ang takaw ko kaya. Kanina, I had this mixture of vanilla ice cream+condensada+bananas+choco syrup. SHET. Sinful, pare. I have to hit the gym or something. Or else talagang hindi ako papayat. =)) =)) =))

Ang weird ng suot ni Mariel. I don't know what that's supposed to do with the Military theme. Ewan. Weird din yung kay Bianca. Pero she looks hott. So...no question on that.

HALA. 11:44 na. I have to go to sleep. Tatapusin ko lang yung PBB. Ang aga kaya namin tomorrow. We have a game against 19. Semi-finals?! Shyyyt. Good luck. Hhahaaha.

Labels: foreigners, katakawan, katatawanan, shouldntbeherebutiam, telebisyones

Saturday, February 24, 2007

random rants

Did somebody take your tongue, in worries of the words that you couldn't say, that they could have saved them from? And I don't want to sleep without. So I bid to you, good night. Tonight, sleep tight, my love.

And that was The Velourium Camper I: Faint of Hearts by Coheed & Cambria. I love that song. It sounds different than the songs from Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume 1: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Mad. That's an awfully long title, by the way. I love a couple of songs from Good Apollo... though. Yeah.

I hope you die right now, will you drink my chemical? And if you cry out loud it will only make me feel too good... (Once upon your...Once upon your dead body...)

Ang MORBID. Hahaha. Ehwell. Sounds nice naman.

Nako. Limewire wouldn't let me download some songs by the Ramones. Ang daya. :( You guys know anywhere else where I could download Ramones songs?

Anyways. I'm craving for KFC. Extrreeemee HotShots, baby!

Also, there's nothing good on TV. It's so unfair. I want my Nickelodeon back. Seriously. There's always something good in Nick at this time of the day, at this day of the week. Awful. I also miss Girls in Love. That's a British series way back in Nick, and...well, I don't know if they still show it. I used to watch it with my Tito, who's a British citizen. He's a cool kid. He's the youngest among my mom's siblings. Haa haa haa.

I want to do good Photoshopping. If you get what I mean. You know... Hard stuff. Technical stuff. I want that. :( Maybe I'll take photoshop lessons this summer. That is, if my mom allows me to. Haha. I want to make my own vector images. Then maybe I'm going to share it online with you guys.

Wow. I'm so fond of posting long stuff nowadays. I'm being a hypocrite to Angeli. Eh bakit ba, bihira lang naman eh.

Wow. Malapit na matapos schoolyear. Frankly, I don't want to talk about it, 'cause I don't know if I want it to end or not. Seriously. It ending means, I don't get to see my friends... But I get to have freedom to do what I want, I guess... Also time to do more photoshopping. So...I really do NOT know anything.

OO NGA PALA. New layout! :) You guys like it? Huh? Huh? Do you?! Ang kuleeet. Hahaha. Well, I like it. It's kinda childish... Hahah. Voices nga pala yung kanta sa header. By Saosin. Download it, it's a nice song. Nice lyrics too.

What else? I WANT TO GO OUT. Out of town, I mean. Hey, that's gotta mean something. I'm usually the homebody. Now I want go out. I want to go to the beeaccchh naaaa! Yehey. I want to go to Punta Fuego uli. Grabbbeee.

Labels: music, musicality

Friday, February 23, 2007

boom boom. tgsh tgsh. tililing!

Listening to:

Famous Last Words - The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
Choke on This - Let it Enfold You - Senses Fail
Martini Kiss - Let it Enfold You - Senses Fail
Noise and Kisses - The Used

Wow. Ang baboy nung last post ko. Yeah.

You know what I really, really want? I really, really want a MacBook. A PowerBook. With GarageBand and Adobe Photoshop in it. Everything I'll ever need. Then I'll escape. Sweet escape [YEAH.]. I'll lock myself up in my own room [If ever I'll ever have my own, own. Own sweet room].

You know what else I want? Either I take drum lessons, or continue my piano lessons. The thing about piano lessons are: I don't want to take piano lessons in Yamaha again, 'cause it's so boring, and it can be pretty tiresome to go. Tamad lang ako. You know. I want to do homeschooling. I mean, you know piano homeschooling. The thing about drum lessons are: you gotta have the set, you gotta have a PLACE to put the set, you gotta have a music room that's soundproof, and yeah, people might think you're doing it 'cause someone you liked does it...You should have seen the look on their eyes the moment they set eyes on Nicole's drawing. I mean, really. Even I was surprised. Never thought he'd portray me as a drummer. People were like, Nagd'drums ka? Ako naman parang, Hindi. Haha. Kawawa naman ako.

It's been years since I wanted to learn how to play the piano. Too bad, I'm way behind the young piano virtuosos out there, who're like, performing big time at my age. While I, am only learning the basics. Sayang. There was one friend of my dad's, and she told me I had the potential. That was way back. Now what. Maybe the potential's gone. Piano lessons are boring and all, but there's something that makes me want to go back. There's a certain grace to a pianist's body. The way they're coordinated when behind the piano. The concentration. The look on their face. There's something about it. And I want that.

Actually, it's been actually 3 years since I've wanted to play the drums. Seriously. And I still want to play them, up to now. There's just something attractive about playing them. Really. I'm not kidding. I'm not being plastic here. Heaven knows how long I've wanted to play those things. You know, when you're behind the set, you have this kind of freedom. I'm not the type who'd look like would play the drums. But, come on. I'm not putting myself under a stereoptype--ever. I'd do it, if I really want to. I mean, there are a lot of chick guitarists out in the scene already. So far, there's only one chick drummer I know, and she's Meg White, from the White Stripes. She's amazing. Well, no. I don't know. But I find her amazing, 'cause the White Stripes is a two-man band, but they come up with really amazing songs. Take Seven Nation Army, for example. That song's nice. (:

I'm not going to play the drums because someone I know plays the drums. Save me that shit.

I also want to go back to London. I swear, that city's magical. It's gives you this feeling like...you were meant to be in that city. You were meant to be there. Plus, who wouldn't appreciate the architectural structures (take Starbucks in a museum-looking building)? The thing about us Filipinos, is that usually, when we see something old, instead of enriching it, we tear it down, and create a new, sleek, minimalistic building out of it. Well, I appreciate the old buildings of London.

Lastly, I want a new layout. A neat one, and one that doesn't look like anything else. One that looks like Beekee did it. One that no one else can do, or duplicate. That's what I want.

Labels: london, music, musicality, techiestuff

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

lie

listening to:

twenty twenty surgery - louder now - taking back sunday
gone so young - the possibility and the promise - amber pacific
the kill - a beautiful lie - thirty seconds to mars

Twenty twenty twenty surgery...bla bla bla. I can't understand anything anymore. In fact, I can't understand what I'm feeling. I'm being two-sided about things. It's the first time that there's ABSOLUTELY NO ONE I could talk to, because either:

no one cares to listen
no one's interested
no one understands
no one knows the truth

Yes. Well, I'm having my drama moment now. Yeah, well I would call myself the drama queen, before my friend Angeli came into the blogging world. She overruled me, though. Ha ha. Peace, buddy. Save the turtles! Wait, do the turtles need any saving?

So anyways, I feel utterly confused right now. You don't have to read this post if you don't want to, I'm pretty sure it's going to be long anyway. Or whatever, I'm not really certain. (:

Here goes.

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listening to:

the faint of hearts - coheed & cambria

I don't know why I keep on living this lie. Maybe because it's what miss and my mum suggested doing? You know what, it's going on very AWFULLY. Awfully with the capital A, W, F, U, L, L, Y. Gusto ko sumigaw. Kasi ayoko na talaga yung nangyayari. Wala naman din ako masabihan. Ngayon kasi, I don't think I'm imagining things anymore. Things are happening for real already. And for once, I don't know what to do, 'cause this has never happened to me, nor to anyone else.

Oo, sometimes I wouldn't think of it, but that's because I'm just thinking of the lies that I've said. The number of lies that keep on spindling into one big gigantimous web. And maybe sometime, I'd be a fly that would not be able to get out of that web, trapped by the spider who would want to eat me.

But then, maybe it wouldn't be so bad being the fly, because I'd die already, and it ends there. In one swift motion, the spider will get me [forgive the term, I don't know how spiders tackle their...ehem...prey.] and I'll die. And then I'd get reincarnated, and then I'll be a fly again, with my fabolous octagonal vision or something.

Wait, NO I am not going to feed you the I-want-to-die shit. 'Cause that's pure BS and yeah, as if the Lord would will me to die amidst all these wrong things going on.

But really, when you think of it, life would be pretty boring without these little shitty stuff that happen, don't you think so? I mean, everyone has them, the deciding point is how you, we deal with it. Yeah. In the end, it's up to you to make yourself happy--I guess. Not the people around you, not love, not money, not fame, not power. In the end, it's just you.

Just thinking out loud.

I'm living a bliss de la mess. People think I'm being peaceful, but really. It's a completely different thing inside of me.

I can't live on this lie forever. Well, maybe I wouldn't. Who knows. Maybe I wouldn't even remember these things 'till our 25th year Highschool reunion or whatever. I don't know, and I really don't want to think about those things.

I really AM distracted person. I can't seem to get on with what I'm supposed to be writing about.

Lies are bad for your health. Really. One lie can lead to another, and then the next thing you know, you're the fly in the web that I'm talking about.

Which, in my case is true.

I don't want to lie anymore. I want to be true to thyself.

One question.

How?

Labels: lies, love, notforthefolksbuttheyseeitanyway, pain, pessimism

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

everyone's entitled to their own drama moment anyway.

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change, hoping that someday things will mend and be the same. And this is for the ones who have lost it all, and all that's left to gain. This is a simple reminder that the things we're blind to slip away.

How can I say I'll be okay?

And if I fall,through these days that go by without cause. Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own. And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on. Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on.

Now that the line's been broken, I'm too afraid to just look back. The pages have left an empty space. You were all I had. Why does it have to be this way?

***

Won't you come over? You know that you want to. How does it feel to know I still want you?

Why do we always seem to want what we can't have? Lessons learned. But then I listen to my heart,and it says still run back for more. I'm happy for you.

But it breaks my heart, to know I can't hold you. It's just hard to think I'll never get the chance to say you're mine.But every time you hear this song, you'll know you've made a mark on my heart and my mind.

Labels: drama, love, musicality, pain, quotes

OH RIGHT.

I'm sorry darlings, i forgot to include this:

THANKS TO ALL WHO COMMENTED AND TAGGED IN MY CBOX. I'M SO SORRY I CAN'T GET BACK TO YOU GUYS KAGAD 'CAUSE I'M DOING SOMETHING, 'MKAY? SO I'M GONNA SEND YOU MY LURRVE SOME TIME.

THANKS. MUCH LURRVE. (:

btw.

I HAVE A NEW POST READ IT READ IT.

kuryente!!!

HOY. WALA KAMING KURYENTE 'CAUSE THE WIRES GOT F*D UP. Not because we were unable to pay the bills. Ano naman tingin mo sakin, noh? (:

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Oh, glorious, righteous electricity. Yeahawwww. I missed being in front of this computer. I seriously did. That last 6 days have been crraazzzyyy. Yeah. I can say that I'm a TOTAL, TOTAL survivor. Yey!!!

So here are a few things I WOULD HAVE written here:

- music and lyrics.

wonderful movie. yes. i found it utterly creative, and fairly amusing. they throw punchlines with no holds barred. i loooove hugh grant (hi mom. hahah). and the music video in the beginning was soooo amusing. hahahaha. (: <3 the movie.

- kfc.

speaking of the movie, music and lyrics, i ate kfc while watching it. well, yeah. i haven't had dinner yet, and i was seriously craving for something spicy (i love spicy food, by the way.). so i bought EXTREME hot shots and two ehrr...cups of rice. takaw, noh? hey i haven't had lunch and merienda noh. (: it was soooo fun. hahah.

- diagnostic tests.

hated: math. hahaha. well, hindi naman. i don't know some of it. actually, konti lang naman. thanks to my ninang (who's a licensed Montessori teacher in the US, btw) who gave me these workbooks on algebra. lahat nandun na. i just didn't study that much. i mean the workbooks. hahaha. hahah. aliw yung filipino test. (:

- new love.
i am in LOOOOOOVE. yey yey yey yey. Five five five. It takes five. High five. His name means: who is god? and classsssyy and happy. oh dear God. falling in love *again* is such a funny feeling. i looooove it. ahaha. the joy of seeing him in the corridors, the thrill of being looked in the eye.

shyt ang corny ko na. hahah. problem lang. hard to reach eh. adds to the thrill, but really. imma be in trouble if you-know-who knows i like ehrr... the new guy. 'cause...i don't know. i don't know. maybe imma get bad rep from him. who cares. i'm still in love.

btw, in love, in this sense means, in like. i'm not in LOVE in LOVE. do you get it? no, i don't think of him every single second *ata*, yeah. you know what i mean. i just want to use the expression cause i feel like so. not because i really mean it. kung in love ako nagdrama na ako. dibaa?

anyways. i need to go shopping. hahahaha. mummmmyyyyy!

Friday, February 16, 2007

punyeta.

bwisit na Meralco. =)) WALA KAMING KURYENTE putangina. HAHAHAHAHA. Pero OK lang, I'm having fuuuuuunnn. =D Btw, absent ako because "I HAVE SEVERE MIGRAINE". Yeaaaaaahhh. I"m over at Ate Monica's (THANKS PARE). Maghohotel ata kami tomorrow pa. Shyet bakit bukas pa. Sorry puro mura hah, ngayon lang ako nagkacontact sa outside world. Eww, ang tagabundok ng dating. Ye ye ye.

hahaha. I MISS MISS MISS YOU GUYS. Ye ye ye. Musta ang atsara? Woooiii I missed out ah. Sabi na may mangyayari with Miss Marcos eh. Putaness. Stupid migraine. Parang sasabog na utak ko shyeeeetttt =(

Kelangan ko ng TV. Kahit deal or no deal lang basta may npapanuod. Huhu Iyak na ko.

Belated happy heart's day nga pala.

Oi hazel, nakuha mo yung grater?

MAGPARAMDAM KAYO PARANG AWA NYO NA. Hindi niyo alam, hu hu hu hu. WALANG KURYENTE tapos yung mga kapitbahay namin merong nga kuryente. Minsan napadungaw ako sa aming bintana sa kalagitnaan ng kagabihan at napunta ang aking paningin sa mga ilaw ilaw ng kapitbahay na wari'y nangaasar: "HAHAHAHAHAH. MAY ILAW SILA. KAYO WALA. BUTI NGA. "

Magparamdam kayo, please. Tell me why I deserved this. Hu Hu. Nagkulang ba ako sa pangangalaga sa aking mga anak? Punyeta.

Right. What Hazel told me actually was disturbing. Sakin siya nagkaatraso ah. HOY =)) But you know what, sayang oras pag iniisip ko yun. Walang kwenta. Mas may kwenta pa iyakan yung walang kuryente kesa sa ganun.

So kung tatanungin niyo kung anuano ang ginawa ko during the past two (ehrrr) days..
- kumain
- matulog
- magbasa nang magbasa (natapos ko na ata lahat ng libro dito sa bahay.)
- makitawa
- UMORDER SA 8-MCDO
- maligo
- makinig sa iPod na sa ngayon ay nakasaksak kela munica dahil UBOS na ang baterya niya (talaga nga naman)

Grabe. Ayus nga eh. I'm so lucky na mahilig ako magbasa. KUng hindi, ay tangina nakatameme lang ako sa buong bahay.. ye ye ye. Natapos ko na lahat ng pugad baboy ko (1,3,11,17,18) HIndi rin ako adik diba....

PARANG AWA NIYO NA BASAHIN NIYO TO.

Sige nababaliw na ko. I'll try to reach you.

Miss you guys. :) Byebye

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

make love, not war.

*update//
Read THIS

And you'll know what I mean. Yeah, if you want to hurt people, you've done it. Haha. But I really don't let it bugger me. Tell you what, I want to stay in the middle.

Since when was I a peace loving person?

//*update*//

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Don't you just love it when people give you the extra attention? Haha. Love me. Hate me. Yeah, I care. But I can't do anything about it, can I? I can't please everyone, what do you want me to do? The thing that bothers me is that I don't know the exact reasons on what these people hate me for. Yeah? Honestly, I can't say that I've done absolutely nothing with you. I'm just not sure which ones that hit you hard. (:

Can't wait when he'll talk to me. Haha. I wonder what will happen. A stink bomb in my locker before I finally leave my first year in high school behind? Or what could be worse? Confrontation? Oh, I love that. I'd be looking forward to that.

Kung mapipikon ka, atleast sabihin mo muna sakin kung bakit. Fair play tayo, pare. Kung mangreresbak ka, sabihin mo para handa din ako. Haha.

Mean kung mean. Pokpok kung pokpok. Bitch kung bitch. Backstabber kung backstabber. Walang gaguhan. If you don't like me, say it to my face, not to my big, fat, naturally black ass. Para we all live in peace, hindi ba? Make love, not war. hahahahah!

Labels: hate, love, notforthefolksbuttheyseeitanyway, peace, war

Saturday, February 10, 2007

dot dot dot.

Ange: Yeah, I deleted it 'cause you said it lacked intensity. I'd make a new one someday.

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A month or so to go before the school year ends. Honestly, I don't know if I'd want it to end or not. It's been my first-ever year in high school, and as everyone older than me says it, it is very much different than grade school.

As a grade 6 student, I was asking myself, bakit ba laging pinakamasaya ang high school? masaya din naman grade school ah!

Well, yeah. My foot is in my mouth right now. High school is much more fun than grade school in so many ways.

I could honestly say that I enjoy my section a lot. Besides the stupid things that are happening, yes. My section is a mix of very different people. See, when you're in what they label as the, "top section", in grade school, there are a certain group of people that don't get out of the top section. Do you know what I mean? Well, I guess I was one of these people. You could also say that it was a breath of fresh air being classmates with other people. Some have been my classmates at least once, or twice, or thrice.

My classmates are different. Some have changed throughout the course of the school year. Well, that's part of the fun...I guess. These old and new faces have been a part of my life already.

I have made new friends, met new people, failed and succeeded. Felt good about myself, felt awful about myself. Experimented on new things all the time, thought about the old things. Created new memories, reminisced old ones. When things go, new people come.

I felt challenged. I felt the lack of passion and drive. The inconsistency.

Slowly, I have molded myself into what I want to be right now. I don't thrive to please everybody. I gave that up years ago.

High school is all about self-discovery. Let loose. Go wild. Live life. Love life.

Friday, February 09, 2007

new layout.

Just dropped by to say I have a new layout. I don't know if it's going to be temporary or what. I love the header, though. (: I haven't got the nerve to blog, 'cause, well...ehr... things are pretty sh*tty. Sorry. No one wants to hear about tragedy, right? Ehr, with the complete exception of Romeo and Juliet, a story which everyone seems to love so much.

Anyways, this week has been so jam-packed, whacked and downright crazy. It's going to be February 14 this coming Wednesday! Not that I'm really expecting anything. Actually, I'll be having a "date" with my mum. Hahahahahaha. Single girls galore. Wooo. Too bad 14th's on a Wednesday. Kinda sucks. Can't stay up late 'cause there'll be classes the next day. Awwwwww :(

Haay, let me end this post with me singing...

paano sasabihin sayooooooo?

p.s.: do not mistake it for anything that i would want to tell someone.i beg of you. i have had enough of those.

Labels: layouts, singing

Friday, February 02, 2007

please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.

I ~~want~~ need to be busy with something. So that I could finally say, I'm too busy to be thinking about boys. Really. I shouldn't be thinking about them, and it's a waste of time. I wasted time awhile ago looking out for guys (with angeli, and hazel, and madz, and jethro...). I know I'd be turning them down naman. No one can replace the original superman. Not even batman. Nor spiderman. Superman's superman. No one else is superman. (My folks are reading this. Patay. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hi guys! )

Anyways, back to the topic... Maybe it's not time to let go. Siyempre wala naman talagang makakapalit kay superman. Just like no one could replace spiderman, and batman, and wonder woman, and green lantern, and the flash...ngee corny na. Haha.

The thing with imagination is, sometimes it can deceive you into thinking of something far from reality. It can confuse you from reality and fantasy. This is getting really hard.

And I am worrying about things I shouldn't be worrying about.

Labels: drama, notforthefolksbuttheyseeitanyway, superheroes

Thursday, February 01, 2007

sumfink is wrong with my blog.

You won't probably see this. :)) But somfing is wrong with my blog. It sucks.

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Anyways, I feel real stupid today. Nothing bad actually happened--none that I know of... but I don't know... I just feel really awful.. Goodbye superman. Do you remember that? Wow. So many things have happened. And here's summer again. It's almost been a year.

Many things around me happen for a certain reason. A reason I would really want to know.