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--> i am vicky, i'm only 13, and i reside in the philippines. specifically where? in las piñas. yes, i am near sm southmall.
--> i am currently in my freshman year in san beda college alabang, a proud member of section sixteen, baby!
--> i have started blogging quite a few years back, and this is the only time that i stayed for loyally to one blog for so long.
--> as it is quite obvious, i'm into music, and i would love to learn how to play the drums. i was inspired by the book, she's got the beat which hazel lent me.
i've been wanting to play it for 2 years or so, i don't know what's gonna happen. xp
--> i listen to almost everything, except some super slow and sentimental stuff. i love retro music, rnb, contemporary, pop, emo, rock, bossa nova, and when i'm in the mood, metal. which is rarely the case.
--> bands/people i listen to: rage against the machines, snoop dogg, starting line, akon, maroon 5, fall out boy, coheed & cambria, the used, saosin,
gwen stefani, fergie, john legend, bowling for soup, new found glory, taking back sunday, avril lavigne, the red jumpsuit apparatus, 30 seconds to mars,
a perfect circle, the academy is, acceptance, afi, the ataris, amber pacific, sitti, audioslave, avenged sevenfold, hilera, spongecola, typecast, chicosci,
bright eyes, buckcherry, the carpenters *HAHA*, bullet for my valentine, finch, the click five, yellowcard, dashboard confessional, everclear, the fray, from first to last, everclear, gorillaz, green day,
imago, incubus, jawbreaker, jimmy eat world, john mayer, keane, join the club, mika, the killers, linkin park, metallica, lilly allen, the mars volta, muse, mcr, nelly furtado, nine inch nails, p!atd,
paramore, pearl jam, rites of spring, senses fail, seven, shakira, story of the year, thrice, thursday, weezer, the white stripes...and the list goes on.
--> i have a sibling, and i live with my mum.
--> i have been to london, england; rome, italy; palermo, italy; hongkong, china *?!?* and i plan to go around the world before i turn 50.
--> i am an insightful person, i have an opinion on everything, it's just that i don't voice them out all the time.
--> when i am in a bad mood, i snap at people and argue with them. it's a bad habit i got myself into.
--> i love watching television and movies. i love watching discovery travel and living. sometimes i turn to discovery and to national geographic, only when their documentaries are not about
science and animals. i love documentaries about history. world civilization, asian history, as long as it's got something to do with the interesting part of the past, it's cool. (:
--> as for television, i like feel-good shows. i looove veronica mars. i want to be like veronica mars. she's my idol. jk. i used to like the oc, until
i went to london and forgot all about it. i love that 70's show, fez is hilarious. sometimes, i watch disney channel with my kid sister who's 10 years old
i LOVE nickelodeon, and always will. i miss it though. stupid cable people took it off. it's been months since we've told ourselves that we would switch
cables, up to now, it still hasn't happened. bummer? hell yeah.
--> i am not a fashionista. i am usually stuck wearing ordinary and plain stuff, which is so cool with me. i am into the polo/tank-jeans/skirt-havaianas/chucks combination. i am into bags
and shoes though. but more into bags. i'm a brand person *i swear to God, i am so sorry*. i love giordano. and i want the new ones in the lacoste line.
if only i can afford them all. (: i don't really know what kind of clothes fit me, so... if you would like to offer any help, i would gladly accept.
--> i do love shopping though. everyone loves shopping. even guys, i think.
--> i read a lot. i read hilarious comics, auto-biographies, diaries, novels, and of course, chick lit! (:
--> lovelife, lovelife. i am single...and i'm having fun. it's cool having so many crushes all at the same time. i'm a loser when it comes to love, but it's ok. (:
--> i'm a mom *we're just playing* to many kids, including charmaine, justin, abi, kat, angeli, angelique, barbie, michael, genevieve, mela...and?! i don't know anymore. if
is there's anybody i forgot, TELL ME. my dad is paul, and my mom is...the blackboard. wth, right. my husband is...i do not know. n_n
--> i curse a LOT. it's a bad habit. i can be one of the boys. not a girly-girl. but i'm one of the girls too. i can be the best of both worlds. mature and
immature at the same time. shy yet outspoken. quiet yet loud. weird yet sometimes i just blend in. I'M ONE WEIRD CHICK. can't do anything. i'm dorky, and
it's ok with me. i love being me. i love being the fat, silly, loser me. (:
i only link people who link me back, people who regular update. :) so if you don't find your link in my list, don't take offense.
we can always exchange links, i'd gladly do it. Xp
Oh dear, I just re-read my last post and it didn't sound like me. Scary! :)) Anyways, I am loving Taking Back Sunday a great deal this summer. Even if they sounded better in Where You Want To Be, I prefer listening to Louder Now. HAHAHA.
LIAAARR! LIAAAR! If we're keeping score...
I love their vocalist, Adam Lazzara. Really. You should see their music videos. What I love about him the most is that...well, when he sings, he will always have weird expressions on his face...which I can totally relate to, 'cause I do it all the time, when I lip-sync into songs and when I'm trying to annoy my little sister. It proves to be effective. 'Cause in the end of me and Chiara's argument, she sticks her fingers into her nose and she tries to touch me with that finger.
Disgusting, yes. But I live with it. 'Cause sometimes, I do the same to her.
Baboy!
Anyways.
I love the video for Twenty-Twenty Surgery. Lazzara looks smokin'!!! Haha. He should always keep the shades on, though. The music video is some sort of based on the prison concers that Johnny Cash used to do. I forgot what they were called, but can always wikipedia it. I hate Lazzara's nose ring, though. Peace.
Twenty-Twenty Surgery
You gotta love the Lazzara. :)
OH! I ABSOLUTELY adore Liar's music video: TAKE NOTE OF 1:08-1:10. i love this part. yes, that's when he pops his collar. :))
Liar (it takes one to know one)
It's absolute genius. :)) Lazzara looks nice in this one too. It's funny, because I viewed it again, and when I was lip-syncing to it, I do the exact faces that Lazzara makes! :)) Soulmates! =p
OH!
Also, you gotta love the Jared. I mean Jared Leto, of 30 seconds to Mars. I just don't say it because he's hot. He can sing too! And their music videos have depth, and most of the time, they're movie like. Here are some vids:
From Yesterday
First American music video to be entirely filmed at China. Beautiful. 7 minutes long, but waiting for it to load is worth the wait. It's complex and puzzling, and that's what's beautiful about it. Also, watch out for the 3 short seconds when Jared shows his knock-out abs. Beautiful, man I must say. I'm disappointed with the show on ETC, Sexiest, for not including him on the top 25. I mean, this man is brooding and sort-of stoic, he oozes sex appeal. Dang. Love love Jared Leto. :)
The Kill
Favorite song from 30 stm. The video's scary. Really scary and creepy. That's why you gotta watch it. Jared Leto looks really hot in this video. The hottest I've seen him so far. I like him this way. Kind of chubby-ish. Haha. The video's also complex and confusing, you have to watch it more than once to understand it. That's why you should love it.
Hahah. Ang daya. I was bloghopping just a while ago, and I noticed that more seasoned and much older ladies offer much insight compared to a teen girl's blog.
Just like mine.
You know, they tackle drama in a drama-less way. Like, when they go to this certain place and they actually tell you about it, they don't bore you with insignificant details (like I do) and they always have pictures accompanying it (unlike I do).
Naiinggit ako. Suddenly I want to be more experienced and older and I want to tell you people about it. I want my own camera, and I want to go places with it.
Tama ba yun? Is it right to say that?
Waaah. Naiinggit ako.
*** Anyways. I was Wikipedia-ing (again). I should have believed my Tito when he told me that Wikipedia has everything. Grabe. Wikipedia is addictive. It's got anything and everything. Haha. Others get addicted with Dota and O2jam, I say Wikipedia.
NERD!!!
Haha. Anyways, I was blabbing once again.
So I was Wikipedia-ing Johnny Cash, because Walk the Line was showing in Star Movies. And then in the entry about him, there was a link to Rock n' Roll, so I clicked it too... Which led to the list of the many genres of rock.
Grabe. Ang dami dami pa pala. Twee Pop? Viking metal? Anatolian Rock? Avant-progressive Rock?
MATH METAL?
Huwadaaahecck?
Kaya nga I'm refraining from labeling genres. Ang dami-dami nila! Like kunwari, I say this one band is emo. They say they're not emo, just alternative-rock. Oh dear. Just let people believe what they want to believe! Haha. They're all just the same. Rock. And Roll. HAHAH.
I just realized this when I tried to click the link leading to each genre, trying to classify the bands that I know under each genre. So far, I needn't click the link to each genre, since most of them belong to Alternative Rock anyway. But still, you know. It's fun knowing different rock genres.
Ang labo nga lang talaga. :))
Natatawa lang talaga ako sa mga name. Math Metal? Queercore? Boogaloo? COWPUNK?
WHAAAAT???
Oh, and by the way, I love JOHNNY CASH! :)) Musical discovery. Ching!!!
I love his song, Hurt. Which was covered by Nine Inch Nails. I loved the cover too. But mas gusto ko yung version ni Johnny Cash.
Shame, shame, he died on my birthday, when I finally turned 10. (September 12, 2003)
I didn't watch Walk the Line, though. I dislike movies featuring underdog stories. Which explains the reason why I didn't watch Coach Carter and movies of the same type. With the exception of Dodgeball: a true underdog story...because it really isn't a true underdog story. :)
I know I shouldn't be sad because I'm really have had a good day (except for the part where I lose my wallet)...but really. I started soccer training, but more of that later...probably.
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It's like everybody loves you and everybody wants you lately...
- Josh Kelley
There's something about this song that makes me want to return everything. Songs, poems and letters burnt in the fire, files wiped out of its existence in this computer. How sad. It makes me want to take back what I have said, to take back what has happened. What I felt, what I wanted. Oh dear. I see nothing wrong looking back to the past, but I guess something's up when you're obsessing over it.
But really, nothing can help it, right?
Nobody said it was easy, it's just a shame for us to part.
- Coldplay
Desperation is a funny thing. You get too desperate, you get into trouble. Be not desperate about something at all makes you somehow appear as not interested in getting what you want. This might not be the same for other people, but it goes for me.
Desperation is a funny thing. You get too desperate and you don't solve the problem; more often than not you make it worse. Be not so desperate about something and not show interest makes you somehow appear as not interested in getting what you want; oftentimes people don't see you as someone worth helping... More heads, the better. For me, atleast.
Desperation is a funny thing. Sometimes, the puzzle just doesn't fit. There's a missing piece--an extra piece. Then numbers don't make sense. The figures don't look like figures anymore. That's when you get too desperate.
Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be this hard.
Baby I'm too lost in you, caught in you, lost in everything about you so deep, I can't sleep, I can't think. I just think about the things that you do.
-Sugababes
Obsession. Everything you get obsessed about gives you trouble. In the end, it all boils down into something: too much is bad. I have gotten obsessed into so many things in the past that when I try to sit down and recount them all, I feel like there's always something I have forgotten. I became obsessed with Harry Potter, Daniel Radcliffe, Hero Angeles (as I have said, I regret. Xp) and so much more things.
Recently, growing into my adolescent years, I have found a new obsession... that I didn't notice was an obsession, until now.
To me, finding someone I love and someone who will love me back is an obsession...and the same goes to some girls my age out there. In the end of the day, I just want to know that someone I love...and loves me back romantically will always be there for me, will have a family with me (oi, in the future, hah), will build a house with me...you know...the same old crappy cinderella fairy tale story. But now not all fairy tales...happen. Maybe it's a self-esteem issue, maybe it's about affirmation, maybe it's about closure that everything will be fine.
Obsession to finding love can be tiring. Love comes, you don't go around looking for it. My mom told me that the love that last, the relationships that last are the ones where things just happen. Chance meetings, knowing each other, building friendships. For someone as young as me, this can be very scary because I am afraid that sometime in the future, I might grow tired of loving. I might grow tired of hoping that someone is not there for me. I am afraid that I will have no one to come to home to. No one living with me in my house. No screaming children, no bossy husband. I am afraid that because of my obsession to finding the perfect one for me, the ideal guy for me, I may not be able to let in the people who should be in my life.
Melancholy. Desperation. Obsession. Very funny things indeed.
This is my 405th post. Cool. When will I reach my 1000th post kaya? Grabe, this blog is so special to me. I didn't know I'd last this long. When others have given up and transferred and gone somewhere and then gone back again and left and whatever's next, I'm still here. And I guess I'll be seeing more of people this summer, due to their uhm, summer boredom. Or whatever, I don't know.
I find my life completely uninteresting, and I find ways to make it seem interesting, without lying or fabricating whatever. I don't do that, that's not right.
Which is the reason why I am completely suprised to see more than 1 circle in my NeoFlag counter! YEEEEEEEEY. :) People actually DO drop by here! Ang daya naman, leave your COMMENTS, people!!
Wow, people from Croatia and Bahrain manage to drop by. And Poland. AND ITALY!
Oh wow, who're the people from UK? Hala, my titos? [UNCLES] HIII! Hahaha. Send your love to Matty and Gaia for me, IF EVER you are reading this.
*** I SO miss my iPod. My baby! =(( I feel awfully sad. You want to know what happened?
We were hanging out at Danton's house, which had a pool [yeah, I have written about this house a couple of times before. the one in ayala alabang!!], and aivi, my friend/groupmate was using my ipod. She was fooling around with Lenard, so she pushed him to the pool. Then she went to side, and she SLIPPED down to the pool. Karma got back at her easy. What I wonder about is why I got karma'd too. What'd I do?
At first, I was kind of, it's ok, just pay for it. I didn't worry much, 'cause I thought it's just a blip, and it'll be fine the next day. I guess it wasn't. Up to now, it still won't work.
Aivi promised to pay for it anyways. Thanks Aivi! I really appreciate it.
And you know what, when I found out that it won't work anymore? I felt like crying. Really. It was a material thing, but I valued it a lot, and it's part of my daily routine. Now I practically live my life in silence, except when I am in front of the computer, 'cause I can always use my iTunes.
I miss my iPod. Really. I don't know why I feel sad without it. Maybe I got so attached to it, life's harder without it.
It DOESN'T help that some people around me go sashaying around with an iPod glued to their ears. Naiinggit ako. I feel jealous.
Music means a lot to me, in ways I cannot explain. Music can easily shift my mood. The lyrics, no matter how corny, chessy or whatever make me realize things. Music influences me. Music makes me dance. Music makes me lose control.
Did somebody take your tongue, in worries of the words that you couldn't say, that they could have saved them from? And I don't want to sleep without. So I bid to you, good night. Tonight, sleep tight, my love.
And that was The Velourium Camper I: Faint of Hearts by Coheed & Cambria. I love that song. It sounds different than the songs from Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume 1: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Mad. That's an awfully long title, by the way. I love a couple of songs from Good Apollo... though. Yeah.
I hope you die right now, will you drink my chemical? And if you cry out loud it will only make me feel too good... (Once upon your...Once upon your dead body...)
Ang MORBID. Hahaha. Ehwell. Sounds nice naman.
Nako. Limewire wouldn't let me download some songs by the Ramones. Ang daya. :( You guys know anywhere else where I could download Ramones songs?
Anyways. I'm craving for KFC. Extrreeemee HotShots, baby!
Also, there's nothing good on TV. It's so unfair. I want my Nickelodeon back. Seriously. There's always something good in Nick at this time of the day, at this day of the week. Awful. I also miss Girls in Love. That's a British series way back in Nick, and...well, I don't know if they still show it. I used to watch it with my Tito, who's a British citizen. He's a cool kid. He's the youngest among my mom's siblings. Haa haa haa.
I want to do good Photoshopping. If you get what I mean. You know... Hard stuff. Technical stuff. I want that. :( Maybe I'll take photoshop lessons this summer. That is, if my mom allows me to. Haha. I want to make my own vector images. Then maybe I'm going to share it online with you guys.
Wow. I'm so fond of posting long stuff nowadays. I'm being a hypocrite to Angeli. Eh bakit ba, bihira lang naman eh.
Wow. Malapit na matapos schoolyear. Frankly, I don't want to talk about it, 'cause I don't know if I want it to end or not. Seriously. It ending means, I don't get to see my friends... But I get to have freedom to do what I want, I guess... Also time to do more photoshopping. So...I really do NOT know anything.
OO NGA PALA. New layout! :) You guys like it? Huh? Huh? Do you?! Ang kuleeet. Hahaha. Well, I like it. It's kinda childish... Hahah. Voices nga pala yung kanta sa header. By Saosin. Download it, it's a nice song. Nice lyrics too.
What else? I WANT TO GO OUT. Out of town, I mean. Hey, that's gotta mean something. I'm usually the homebody. Now I want go out. I want to go to the beeaccchh naaaa! Yehey. I want to go to Punta Fuego uli. Grabbbeee.
Famous Last Words - The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
Choke on This - Let it Enfold You - Senses Fail
Martini Kiss - Let it Enfold You - Senses Fail
Noise and Kisses - The Used
Wow. Ang baboy nung last post ko. Yeah.
You know what I really, really want? I really, really want a MacBook. A PowerBook. With GarageBand and Adobe Photoshop in it. Everything I'll ever need. Then I'll escape. Sweet escape [YEAH.]. I'll lock myself up in my own room [If ever I'll ever have my own, own. Own sweet room].
You know what else I want? Either I take drum lessons, or continue my piano lessons. The thing about piano lessons are: I don't want to take piano lessons in Yamaha again, 'cause it's so boring, and it can be pretty tiresome to go. Tamad lang ako. You know. I want to do homeschooling. I mean, you know piano homeschooling. The thing about drum lessons are: you gotta have the set, you gotta have a PLACE to put the set, you gotta have a music room that's soundproof, and yeah, people might think you're doing it 'cause someone you liked does it...You should have seen the look on their eyes the moment they set eyes on Nicole's drawing. I mean, really. Even I was surprised. Never thought he'd portray me as a drummer. People were like, Nagd'drums ka? Ako naman parang, Hindi. Haha. Kawawa naman ako.
It's been years since I wanted to learn how to play the piano. Too bad, I'm way behind the young piano virtuosos out there, who're like, performing big time at my age. While I, am only learning the basics. Sayang. There was one friend of my dad's, and she told me I had the potential. That was way back. Now what. Maybe the potential's gone. Piano lessons are boring and all, but there's something that makes me want to go back. There's a certain grace to a pianist's body. The way they're coordinated when behind the piano. The concentration. The look on their face. There's something about it. And I want that.
Actually, it's been actually 3 years since I've wanted to play the drums. Seriously. And I still want to play them, up to now. There's just something attractive about playing them. Really. I'm not kidding. I'm not being plastic here. Heaven knows how long I've wanted to play those things. You know, when you're behind the set, you have this kind of freedom. I'm not the type who'd look like would play the drums. But, come on. I'm not putting myself under a stereoptype--ever. I'd do it, if I really want to. I mean, there are a lot of chick guitarists out in the scene already. So far, there's only one chick drummer I know, and she's Meg White, from the White Stripes. She's amazing. Well, no. I don't know. But I find her amazing, 'cause the White Stripes is a two-man band, but they come up with really amazing songs. Take Seven Nation Army, for example. That song's nice. (:
I'm not going to play the drums because someone I know plays the drums. Save me that shit.
I also want to go back to London. I swear, that city's magical. It's gives you this feeling like...you were meant to be in that city. You were meant to be there. Plus, who wouldn't appreciate the architectural structures (take Starbucks in a museum-looking building)? The thing about us Filipinos, is that usually, when we see something old, instead of enriching it, we tear it down, and create a new, sleek, minimalistic building out of it. Well, I appreciate the old buildings of London.
Lastly, I want a new layout. A neat one, and one that doesn't look like anything else. One that looks like Beekee did it. One that no one else can do, or duplicate. That's what I want.
The quarter exams are savage. Very bloody indeedy. Especially the Science quarter exam. Oh wow. Those are bloody sinister. Really hard.
Anyways, I haven't been blogging for a few days, and I guess that it's about time that I do.
What now? Oh yeah, we'll I've technically patched things up with him. We're "communicating" again. Or atleast, I'm attempting to. Which they say, is good. 'Cause if I'm not going to communicate, then who will? And there's nothing wrong with that, I just want to be friends with him. Really. Honestly. I mean, I have to wait. I wouldn't want to be anything more than that. It's hard, and complicated and everything. A guy friend is like a boyfriend without any commitments and attachments. Am I right? Maybe, maybe not.
Also, I'm loving Panic! at the Disco twice as much as I've loved them before. One is, I really really love their guitarist, Ryan Ross (second one from left in the picture. ;-)), oh sooo hot. Hahah! And even if I have downloaded practically all the songs off their album, I still had the original one. And believe me, the original one, the CD itself, is nicer than the downloaded ones. Especially Camisado. If I loved it as the downloaded format, I'm loving it more as the one off the CD. Woopee! And if you're going to ask me which songs of P!ATD are really nice, here's what I'm telling you. ALL OF THEM ARE NICE. I promise. :)
I'm going to have a pretty rad week this week and next week. Tomorrow will be just a regular Thursday, but it'll be nice seeing everyone after 5 days. Especially...well...you know. And Friday, I'll be wearing jeans, a green shirt and my black Chucks. Why? It's personnel's day, so we'll be staying only up to 11:30, I think. After that, we'll be going to town. Yeah.
Next week? Oh dear I don't even want to think of it. Monday, regular classes. Tuesday, no classes--Ramadan. Which sucks. 'Cause we have Guidance every Tuesday, and I happen to like guidance. Hahah! Wednesday... I don't know. Thursday...I don't know. Something naff happens on a Thursday. Friday? CONCERT!
Speaking of which, you-know-who won't be here next week. It's sad thinking of it, but yeah. He's missing the only (I THINK) concert of the year. Which rather sucks. No, i doesn't suck. It sucks very bad. :-(( Why he won't be here? I don't know, I really can't tell. But what I know is he'll be out next week 'til sembreak. I'll really miss his presence a lot. Really.
Oh well, I do have to get through the week, don't I? Life goes on, baby.
