ta-da! welcome to my world. :)

Saturday, March 31, 2007

new hair.

edit:

Ok, about the haircut.

Since I have been itching to go and have my hair done in the uber-posh Franck Provost salon, my mum decided to let me have my hair done over there as a gift for my good grades and my silver spelling medal. I have been telling her that when I get my haircut there, I want it to be worth the money, since the last time I had my haircut, it wasn't really noticeable.

Initially, I was only supposed to have my haircut.

But then mom's ultra-cool hairdresser Dennis suggested for me to have hot oil. Dear Peter, the hands of the guy who was going to take charge of my hot oil were like making love with my scalp and my back (I mean that in the cleanest way possible). I was like, reading the Philippine Tatler (their magazines are so cool, they're not, like back issues. they even have the latest, uber-thick vogue magazine.kyool!) and then out of the blue he started massaging my scalp. WOAH I was caught in the middle. ANG SARAP.

Since Dennis had a client, he gave me these hairstyle magazines so that I could choose what I want to do with my hair. since my hair wasn't THAT long, I had a hard time. I'm a pretty picky person too, so I only chose ONE out of all the magazines.

Turns out, that's not what he's going to do with my hair.

So I continued reading and he started snipping and snipping, "tusk tusk tusk" the scissors go. When I looked up, I was overcome with awe and shock.

I LOOK EFFING GOOD! =))

Sure, I was overwhelmed with the amount of hair he snipped off me, but hey! I felt the hair that he snipped and it was super course. Plus, super straight hair DOES NOT look good on me. The guy who blow dried my hair, Joel, was asked to blow dry my hair prior to cutting it. After blow drying, I looked at myself. I SHOULD NEVER, EVER GET REBOND. And have my hair in one length. I have a HUGE face...well a ROUND-ISH, SQUARE-ISH face so yeah.

Many snips later...

Voila! Le hair is so short, I think I have the shortest hair among all the girls in our class. But I totally, totally love it. I look so different. And I have bangs. I did not ask for the bangs. But I needed the bangs, since I have a four-finger forehead.

I LOVE MY HAIR. But I look different. BUT I STILL LOVE IT.

***

OH MY F*CKING GOD. Who am I? HAHAHAHAHA.

Friday, March 30, 2007

clarifications about fabrications.

I am thinking of giving my whole blog a makeover. Not just the background and header, but also my sidebar and stuff like that.
I am thinking palang naman. I'm getting tired of how my blog always looks. That's why I'm searching and researching about colors,patterns and brushes to use. Good music helps while making layouts too. And a vision of what you like.

Wow, I really am going to take soccer training. I can't believe I'm actually doing it. Awhile ago, I was reading about it in Wikipedia. I found out a lot. Especially about the four players: goalie, midfielder, striker and defender. The goalie, obviously defends the goal. The midfielder dispossesses the opponent of the ball and passes it on to the striker. The striker scores goals. The defender...what does the defender do again?

No, don't think I'm a huge football genius 'cause I am not. I forgot the 2 other members awhile ago, (strikers and defender), and I got confused about their roles, so I Wikipedia-d it.

I don't want to be the goalie. The idea of having parts of my body down in the ground is awful. I crave for action and intensity. The goalie gets blamed if he/she lets the ball into the goal. Well not really, that's just how I see it. =)) I mean, sure the three other players get the injuries, but that's ok, 'cause that's what I'm in for. :)

Something is ACTUALLY happening in my life. Because I did this brain analysis test, which says that I am often a frustrated person--always organizing events and ideas but never pushing through with it. I just downloaded [brain analysis thing] it off somewhere. It's so cool, it's like, it gives you a self-evalution.Which is so g*dd*mn true. if I were a huge nerd and friendster would give me more than 2000 characters to describe myself, that's what I would put. But putting it would actually make me vulnerable, thus some people might use the said information to hurt me.

We wouldn't want that, would we?

SOMETHING is actually getting crossed off my to-do list! Next project are the drum lessons, which are on hold, because of my beloved Deedee. But it's ok, I'm using Deedee to tap the spacebar now, which means that it, or he rather, is a lot more better! I'll try to take my pens and sticks and try tapping around things. I can write already, which is a plus.

Haaay nako, do we have to go through this again? Ultimatum: I am not taking drum lessons because of "this certain guy". I do not listen to what I listen because of "this certain guy". Well probably a couple of songs and bands I got from him, but the rest is me. Hey, I did not genuinely like Coheed and Cambria until I heard The Faint of Hearts, which I must say is rather recently. I have had their album for a long time,yes, but I bought it because I heard my friends Princess and Lia talking about it, and I got curious so I got the whole burnt edition. I could not stand listening to it, because the first few songs were rather sad and had this "haunting" feeling about them. But I liked The Suffering and Wake Up.

Too bad I didn't listen to the other songs, because Ten Speed and Once Upon Your Dead Body are totally cool. I appreciated Welcome Home when I saw its video.

I learned about 30 seconds to Mars from ETC, because there were headlines about Jared Leto. Coincidentally I saw their music video in MTV the same night, but since we didn't have Broadband at that time, I was only able to download The Kill. I got From First to Last from someone in Multiply.

And I like Panic! at the Disco, though I don't like the band members, 'cause they wear too much makeup. Makeup only looks good on Jared Leto and the rest of the guys in 3ostm.

I really did learn about Initial D and Jay Chou that way. You all remember how much I loved Matteo Guidicelli, right?!?!?!?

Wait, was I blogging here when I crushed on Matteo?

Whatever. What else? Any clarifications, fabrications, violations?

Do I always have to explain myself?

I'm getting paranoid. Deedee kasi eh.

I think too much, don't i?

He'll never read this anyway. What's the point?

Thursday, March 29, 2007

laguna beach.

I feel really weird right now. Not weird in the crazy,mad,loopy,tipsy kind of way; rather bad,nervous,really weird kind of weird.

It all started when I was reading previous issues of Candy magazines that I have...and then I came across something that someone said...it went something like...

It's scary the way girls stare at you. You can see what they're thinking and how they're feeling.

Guys affirm me here. Is that true? Cause when I used to look at you-know-who it's usually a blank look. It's not even a stare.

But then again, my eyes always betray me.

After that I turned the page into this "Dowsing" Thing. Apparently, you put a pendant of your necklace above the center of this pie,which is divided into 12 slices, each showing an object (note cards, book, coffee cup, ipod, cologne, alphabet stamps, shoes, magic 8 ball, charm necklace, sunglasses, music box...) and then you close your eyes, repeat a relationship question on your mind for several times, and then open it and find out which direction--or slice,rather--your pendant swings the most.

You don't have to find out my question to know why I'm feeling paranoid... The pendant pointed into "shoes" which said:

Sometimes, the best thing to do when you find yourself in a stitch is to
walk away. If your guy is doing you no good, put on your favorite pair of shoes
and take a stroll to some place better. Maybe you're destined to meet a cuter
guy, or maybe it's best you appreciate the single life now.

Uhm, look. It's not as if I have a boyfriend, but you must understand what this means to me. Get over the guy.

Haha. That's easy. Oh yeah. Supposedly, I'm supposed to start a "new" life.

How do I put this to you,honey. It ain't that easy.

I don't know why, 'cause I don't love the guy,and I don't know the person!

And then I watched Laguna Beach (Tessa,the narrator is apparently PART Filipina! Be proud!) and then guys were talking behind their girl's backs. Is that how it goes? I mean, that was kinda mean, saying something and not meaning it. Like what happened,to Alex and Raquel/Rocky. Guys are so different around girls. Does that mean that that's who they really are?

Ahh. Now I know how I feel. I feel anxious, and...oblivious to whatever's going on. Right. Oblivious.

I feel anxious because he's turning into someone I don't know. Anxious because I'm not supposed to meddle with his life, 'cause it's his. I feel so bad because I shouldn't even care after all that has happened. I shouldn't even be writing about it. Anxious, because maybe I didn't know him at all.

It's funny how a silly teen reality MTV show can make you realize--not to mention be paranoid-- about so many things.

By the way, Cami and Kyndra are so mean. I was supposed to like Lexie, until I remembered she was part of Kyndra's clique.

Grabe, I feel so bad about myself. I don't know what to do if I cross paths with this guy,now that I'm pretty darn sure I'm taking the soccer training at San Beda. (Finally, a cross in my to do list--yet,though.) Apparently, Nicole H. considered me into it. I guess I was just waiting for someone to go with me.

See, I'm paranoid again, 'cause he might be thinking that all that I know was researched on the internet...After all,that is what I'm known for (or what I think of myself)--my research capabilities. Dear Lord, give me a break and for once believe that all I know is something I have 'researched' prior to our discussion...if you get what I mean. I tried to find about it before you considered asking me about it.

Just get the point.

i got this icebox where my heart used to be.

hahahah. I find the song amusing yet annoying and weird at the same time. That's why I like it.

So many things are bugging my mind right now. A few of which are:

my multiply layout
the hits that im getting here
the commetns that im getting here
my layout here
applying as a hostee
guys. particularly you-know-who. i don't even see him and he bugs the heck outta me. oh wait. i saw him pala. but you know what i mean.
if i should take soccer summer training in san beda.
things i want to have
losing weight
eating
deedee

Those are just a slice from the whole pie of thoughts that are bothering me.

Oh wait, I forgot:

my sister

Who's asking me to get out now. Be back when something juicy hits me. :)

Monday, March 26, 2007

my thumb now has a name.

Since my thumb is quite special to me already I have given it a name:

Deedee

That's its real name. It has a nickname too,which I can never share publicly. HAHAH.

Anyways, to those whose imaginations are on hiatus due to the end of classes, here are pictures of my thumb.

And to those who want to see how it looks.

*note: THESE ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL. not for the faint-hearted. absolutely ugly. if you're up to it,though, scroll down.

Some before and after pictures. Well,not really. I also took a picture of my left thumb so that you would see the difference.

It was too awful not to share it with you. Deedee and I are having fun bumming around. =)) Look,ma, my thumb has gotten fatter!!!

May these pictures serve as warning to you all that you must never FORGET any finger inside the car. On the same note, do NOT slam the car door.

Deedee has a bad sideview angle. He looks fat sideways. He looks better full-frontal...though you still can't hide his chubbiness.

Don't you think so?

How has my hand gotten from beautiful to horrific??

view from the top

Okay, so Mom and I are OK. She heard me crying last night,due to the pain and discomfort brought about by my throbbing, blackish-purple (as franklin would put it) thumb. Damnit! I was tossing and turning. I even tried sleeping in the sala. I only slept when my mom held my hand.

Aww.

Haha. Today went well, 'cause everyone was nicer to me. *evil snicker* It gives me an excuse not to do things. Believe me, there are more things not-do-able besides not being able to tap the space bar with much ease.

Hard time texting.
Hard time controlling the remote.
Can't pull down pants/undies/shorts when changing
Can't write
Can't hold eating utensils properly
Hard time using iPod
No one can have contact with my thumb
Can't bite my thumb (not the nail.the THUMB itself.it's a bad habit.)
I always have to put my thumb upright. I can't bend it, can't put it down or it throbs.
Hard time taking a bath.
Hard time tying my hair.
Hard time brushing hair.

Basically,it's either I have to use my left hand, or my forefinger for things. Some things are just done better by the thumb, honey. It's like I'm campaigning or something, 'cause I have my thumb up at all times. And I mean upright.

Anyways, I've been to ATC for three straight days. Today, Yesterday and the Other Day. I've got pretty good excuses for them.

I was in town last Friday because my mother asked me to chaperone my sister and her friends.

I was in town last Saturday because we're short on time and we've got nowhere to go.

I was in town Today because I was supposed to meet my dad.

See?

I saw someone (you HAVE to know WHO i mean) in ATC today. Damn. I thought I was gonna melt or something. I was shaking so bad someone thought I was having convulsions. I had the urge to go down and stalk them. But that would be stupid. I saw him from the top floor. He was going down with..well... =)) Wow. Honestly...man, thinking about him with the view from the top shivers me timbers. Brrrr.

After that eventful event, I was out of my mind.

Like what happened...when I tried to go inside this car that wasn't ours. Yeah. Dumbly, I just went directly into this BMW, not looking at it, and reached for the door handle, until my mom and my sister suddenly looked at me.

Good thing I did NOT PULL on the door handle,or the alarm might have gotten off.

Imagine the horror.

Anyways, have you tried eating at CAFE BRETON? It's in Westgate. Trust me, they give a new meaning to Crepes.

Oh hell, my thumb might as well have its own life. It can throb all on its own and I could not care less. Throb away, you foolish fool. If my finger grew bigger each time it throbber, I swear it would be bigger than the biggest thing. God.

Honey, if something red oozes out of your skin, that's bad enough. But when you see it purple, and you see it through your skin, that's the real trouble.

Not even a dose of Jared Leto can cure me.

Oh. Today was a brown day too. I bought two, new, brown stuff. A brown Giordano polo short,which I bought against my own will due to *ehem* some circumstances...and brown Havaianas? Oh yeah. 7 Giordanos and 7 Havaianas...Still counting! =D

Now what. I'm still nursing the throbbing finger, ~~a guilty conscience,~~ a regretful mind, and a needy heart. More than the last time I counted.

Labels: ****, 5, atc, brr, injuries, mall

Saturday, March 24, 2007

...a purple finger with a green leaf over it.

Oooh-lala. Purple+Green= Eggplant. HAHAHA. I went to Town today (and tomorrow,too.damn) and watched Because I Said So. Cute movie,I love the Johnny guy. =)) Since I am in no position to type much stuff here...I'll do the review sometime else. =D I saw "5" in town today. Surprisingly,I wasn't as blown away...as I thought I would be. Dear.

So, I was crying over food kanina, 'cause it was so darn painful. Our maids pitied me,and they felt helpless. We tried ice, which just made the situation worse. Now I'm typing with a leaf over my thumb, which is supposed to ease the pain. It hasn't eased the pain, but atleast I felt better.

My mother's mad at us for blowing her off kanina, 'cause we were supposed to pick up and throw the cups that we used awhile ago,while watching the movie. Eh I and my sister,Chiara felt like tripping,so we left her there. She got mad. I feel bad.

Now what, I have to nurse a throbbing thumb and a gulity conscience.

I need a hug from my old bear...however you might call him...talong, black, taba, dong or whatever. Not that I hugged him ever... He used to have this magic of making me feel better, I guess...even if he wasn't talking to me. Even if it's only between the two of us. Even if...

Gaaaahh I better stop. It's corny, and useless and pointless.

Haaayayayayyy. I feel like crying again.

i have a purple finger

Damnit.Damnit.Damnit.I accidentally left my right thumb while getting out of the car, and now I have a partially purple finger,which is throbbing,as I type. Goddamnit,it's painful.

***

Be back when it heals.

jared leto...

...is gorgeous. i love you. =)) =)) kiddang.

He's the lead singer of 30 seconds to mars...and he's an actor!!! How cool is that? =))

attack- 30 seconds to mars

I saw this on MTV the other day, and so I downloaded the song. Sabi na I heard the title from someone else eh... =))

I love his voice, really. It's so distinct, and it doesn't sound punk-ish. =D

damn.

garfield

What I get from my daily dose of Garfield comics. I am not a HUGE fan of garfield comics, but I found it pretty intriguing when someone sent in a link for free daily garfield comics. =D

I liked this certain strip. =))

***

Summer is turning out pretty well. I went out with Angelique to Town yesterday to "supposedly" chaperon my sister and her kid friends. Turns out, that's not what we did. We saw A LOT of people, (I'm talking about Bedans here) especially ones from the 4th year level and the gradeschoolers, since they had their farewell party today. We tried on clothes (HAHAHA) 'cause I'm planning to buy once I have money...and I wonder when that will be.

So while I was eating fries and Angelique was downing Bibingka (Bibingka ba yun? Diba puto-bumbong yun?) we were talking about who would make a great couple. Love teams weren't exempted, they were broken up and the other one would be paired to someone else. Haha. We made up some pretty cool couples, and their chemistry was based on their personality, and not their physical attributes. If we based it on physical attributes, it wouldn't go anywhere. Hahahaha

Basically, we ate, sat, bummed...and had fun. =) Love you Ange.

And for Barbie, Angeli and Hazel, do you want to go to Rockwell...or Greenbelt anytime? Ask permission from your parents na. =D

***

I HAVE MY iPod BACK! I just had it last Thursday. It's brand-new, and now it's almost full! A few more songs and I have to delete na.

Currently loving: when your heart stops beating (+44)

blitzkrieg bop (the ramones)

all that i've got [(the used)ulit! hahaha]

one more time [(daft punk) medyo oldies, but loving it.]

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

i feel like being funny.

Due to the undeniably funny blog entries that I have read, I feel like being funny. (If you have the same sense of humor as I, you should totally check out Meg Cabot's place.)

Unfortunately, I do not know how. Well, I can be pretty funny, but not when I need to.

That is why I cannot be a good stand-up comedian.

As if I want to be.

Anyways, I missed my exercise today. I should not be doing this, since I want to be totally committed to my lose-weight campaign. I was supposed to do it at 5:00, I'm going to try out Yoga. I don't know how bending to some unimaginable position is going to make me any thinner, but I think it's for inner peace.

Not that I've got some inner war going on.

This new website thing is driving me mad. I'm not a quitter, I'm just going to take a so-called break. I need to, I have to. It's driving me insane. If you know anyone who knows the ropes around MS Sharepoint, do let me know. If you let me know someone who's effective enough, I'll make you your own website.

Damn. I need more laughs.

Any movies, shows, blogs that make you crack up? Let me know.

***

I BEG OF YOU PEOPLE TO COMMENT. PLEAAASE? (Y)_(Y)

senatorial elections.

I've been following this show since last night.I really wish that we had ANC channel on our TV. I'm talking about the Forum 2007: The Senatorial Elections. Last night, even if I am not to vote for the next 3 elections or so, I think Mr. Juan Miguel Zubiri proved that he was worthy of a position. Just a case of bad TV commercial. His flyers are pretty poor too. You should have seen him speak.

Tonight, the senatoriables participating are, Ed Angara, Francis Escudero and Atty. Lozano.

Yous should hear Chiz Escudero speak, you'll be wowed. He's an amazing speaker. He doesn't stutter, he looks directly at his audience. Really. He's like a rapper when he speaks, only easier to understand. He doesn't beat around the bush, he talks directly. He also sets examples, which makes it easier to imagine what he is trying to say. The magic of imagery. And what, he's only 37 years old. Very, very good. He will make a good president someday. I am very impressed by him. Funny too, he looks like Bamboo Mañalac at first glance. Or maybe an older version.
Hsi life is pretty interesting too. He's married to a stage actress, I think. I forgot about it. I read it in an article way back.

Their topic is: should the constitution be amended within three years' time?

No. I don't think so. Initially, I don't think that a change in the form of government will affect our present condition. What we need is the improvement of the citizens of our country, and that will always be the issue, no matter what form of government we have. Mr. Escudero is right. The constitution is the highest form of law in any state. We should not let the administration handle this. Like he said, God only gave 10 commandments. If we follow all these, we won't have any problems. Thing is, we can't. The same goes for our constitution. New laws won't be a solution. We need the government to support the needs of the people.

How about you? What do you think? Should the constitution be amended within three years' time? Tell me what you think. Leave comments, I would love to read how you respond.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

of html, css, websites and summer...

I am planning to transfer blogs this summer. Since I am coming up with a new project (e.g. website) for my mum's batch in high school, I decided to make my own website. Not a blog, website. I'm not telling where it is, 'cause it's still a mess. I'm having fun, and it proves to be a challenge. Too bad I can't download the trial version of MS Sharepoint. Well, I actually can, it's just that the file's too big, and, well, our hard disk cannot accomodate a file as huge as that. I just reminded my mother to buy a new hard disk, so I can install games I have been dying to install already, so that I won't be stuck here this summer.

Speaking of summer, I officially started mine today. Here are some things I plan to do/finish/accomplish over the summer:

lose weight
take soccer lessons (it's in san juan, manila. far, if you ask me)
take drum lessons (finally. *whew!*)
finish my mother's website
finish my own website
make a ultra-cool layout for my own website
have a summer job. may not pay well, may not pay at all, as long as it's interesting, for someone like me.
make a scrapbook of my life before i turned 18
develop pictures (old-skool)
buy the pink and brown chucks that i saw in a website.
buy something over the net
organize my things

That's all. Not quite many, isn't it? By the end of the summer, you shall face the truth, together with me, and we will cross out everything that I accomplished. I hope that I'll accomplish the first one. It's not about looking better to attract the guy that I like (I like no one as of the moment). It's about feeling good about myself. As if I don't feel good about myself already.

I'm glad that I'm starting to treat myself well already. Not letting some guy downgrade me. Knowing that I deserve someone better. He can be perfect and all that, be ideal and all that, but not for me. IF he is the one that's for me, according to the Moirae (don't know them? Do your research. That's what Wikipedia is for), then time will tell, right? Why the heck waste time?

I'm glad that I have finally decided that it's time to move on. I've said it many times, I'll say it again. God knows how hard I try. But maybe not hard enough. I'm glad that I don't like anyone right now. It was something I thought I wasn't capable of, but here I am. I don't like anyone...I mean...in that way. Who knows, someone might come along and stay for a summer fling. ((:

SO, so. Cheers to websites, summer and flings! ((;

Monday, March 19, 2007

you know what, whatever.

Many things hold me back while making posts: among a few of them are:

people might not be able to read it, therefore will not be able to comment on them
they are not substantial, therefore not sensible
i don't know how to end my posts. before, i don't know how to start an article. now, my problem is how to end it.
sometimes, i don't know where i'm going with what i'm supposed to say.
i have this mantra: absence makes the heart grow fonder. if i don't post always, more people will constantly visit my blog. which i do not know if it's true.

Well, if I want to change, then I must not let anything, anyone hold me back. I've always been inspired by many people who have very popular, beautiful yet very substantial blogs. And I follow their trend. Now, I won't. And I will be setting my own. These people, do not get me wrong, have very amazing blogs, and they never cease to inspire me. And maybe someday, years from now, I'll be able to inspire other people to blog too.

I was supposed to make a post about change. And now, I'm going to undergo one.

Cheers to my freedom in blogging! (:

oh dear.

No match ako dun sa crush niya. Wooow. Ansexy! Haha.

***

Went to Nasugbu, Batangas over the weekend. I'm too tired to tell who was there. But there were a couple of my mother's officemates and friends. Tita Thelma, my mum's friend, was there too, with her family.

We went ahead of them, and we agreed to meet at Starbucks, Tagaytay because Tita Thelma didn't know the way. My mum's officemates are to come in the evening. We chilled out there [literally. it was cold out there.] for about an hour or so. And then Tita Thelma and her crew arrived. Ang dami nila! (They were many!) Dang. Ayun, headed over to Tali Beach. We passed by Terrazas de Punta Fuego. Dear Lord, I WANT to go back there! I swear. Mom said maybe sometime this summer.

Oh yeah, we might be going to Malaysia sometime. That is so cool. (: I'll be getting to see a lot of our world already. How nice.

Ok. Pictures:

le ceiling

playing volleyball

dami tao.

ooh. purty.

pictures here, once again.comments are greatly appreciated.

Labels: peace, summer, summer now, volleyball, weekends

Friday, March 16, 2007

farewell.

People present today:
- angeli
- angelique
- hazel
- barbie
- genevieve
- sheryll
- ana r.
- jen jen
- jethro
- madz
- aivi
- ayana
- dana
- arielle
- erika
- crissa
- nadine
- dia
- hanna
- franklin
- josh
- daddy paul
- carl
- jiggy e.
- zigmund
- nicole
- michael
- jp
- benedic
- sean
- justin
- mark
- danton
- johan

We had our farewell party as a section. Well, most of us atleast. Too bad not everyone was there. It should have been required. Well, it was required. Whatever, it's too stressful to elaborate.

I met the kids over at Tacobell at SM Southmall. A couple of the guys were already there. (; After wasting time over there [Tacobell's interior is LOVE], the guys (and I mean boys) + I headed over to Hazel's car to go over to the Camella Homes Clubhouse. The place was nice. Little by little everyone poured over to the pool. Others had to be forced to the pool until everyone was already there. Fun. Everyone was required to wear shades, but I only saw I few actually wearing them.

I had fun. Really guys, I love you all. (:

Grabe, what Franklin did to Hazel was so effing sweet. I'm starting to sound perky now. Or something like that. But really. You were great dude. Good luck, dude and dudette! (:

Now what. I have to go swimming tomorrow again. By the end of summer, I'll be black as charcoal. (:

love the pic.

le pool.

crissa, nadine, erika and dia. love the picture.

hazel and carl?!?! SINO TO?

for more pictures. click HERE.

Labels: peace, school, summer, summer now

Thursday, March 15, 2007

of all music videos

Girlfriend: Avril Lavigne

Waddaheck happened to Avril Lavigne? The last time I saw her was she was all black, from top-to toe. Since when did she know how to dance? I'm not a fan of Avril, but I liked her Under my Skin album. What the hell happened? I don't know if I like this new her or what. I've got nothing against it, but it needs some getting used to. She's just so different. The angsty teen got younger. Never thought she'd resort to this image. :)

Sweet Escape: Gwen Stefani

Now this is a funny video. I've never seen so many gold in the same place my whole life. And the scene where 2 Harajuku girls go up the building using Gwen's looong hair is funny. They look cute bobbing up and down the same time. =)) It was pretty cool, even if I expected for them to de-musicvideo-lize the song in a different manner. Nonetheless, I still stop switching channels when I see this video on MTV. Which says a lot.

Grace Kelly : Mika

Now I looove this music video. I love the song too. They were pretty much telling the truth when they said that this was the best song within a few years. I find it hilarious and very light. I try to be that Grace Kelly, but her looks were too sad... Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty? Do I like what you like? :p I looove the little girls in the video!!! I love how the little girl does the voice over. =D

A Favor House Atlantic : Coheed & Cambria

I think that Coheed and Cambria videos are the best. They're so hilarious. I think their vocalist would look better without much hair. But I guess that's what makes a statement. Suddenly, their music isn't all as freaky as it was to me. =D

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

i want a camera.

I want a Sony digicam. Or a handicam would do. You have no idea how much it means to me to capture anything and make them look beautiful, even if it's only in the photo. It means much to me to be able to capture stillness for a second. It means much to remember these things and to be able to share it with you. That's why I want my own digicam so bad. We have a family digicam, but I don't feel like it's mine. Plus, it's not really on the latest side.

Speaking of cameras, I want to be a photographer when I grow up. I was thinking of jobs the other day, and nothing seemed to fit me. I thought of being a lawyer. Heck no. It wouldn't fit my lifestyle, even if it would fit my headstrong personality. A politician maybe? No. That's one job my mum wouldn't approve for me. And thinking of actually making leaflets and posters with my face and name plastered in them gives me the chills. A doctor? Hell no. I never wanted to be a doctor. A pshychologist? Hmmm. Still in the medicine department. But I'm also considering this one.

So I ended up thinking of photography. It has long been one of my options, and I got encouraged when people kept on telling me how good I was in taking photos. Graphic designing has always been a dream, even as a young girl, believe it or not. I loved drawing designs and backgrounds and conceptualizing things in my young mind. But I do not know how to draw. Can that be a drawback?

But I was thinking that these two jobs that I want aren't really stable as to working in the office and becoming an employee. But this is the first time that I really felt the drive to be someone I wanted to be. I want to capture the beauty of anyone, anything, everything! I'm not used to being the subject of photos, I would much rather being behind the camera. The person behind the beautiful picture. Kind of like being a director.

Andy Warhol is a famous American painter who defines
Pop Art. He is famous for depicting celebrities and daily objects differently,
as the one shown above: the can of Campbell's soup. I also loved reading about
his works about American mythology, which according to him includes Mickey Mouse
and several more legendary animated and iconic figures, equivalent to the heroes
and gods of Greek , Roman and Norse mythology.

I am inspired by Andy Warhol's works. And one day, some day, I'll be the Andy Warhol of my generation. Heck, even of the Philippines, if there's no one yet. You know what I'm going to do? I'm going to take photos and edit them into something that I can say that is truly me. Yeah, that's what I'm going to do.

What now, I better start working on it.

Click!

Monday, March 12, 2007

baby i'm too lost in you... =))

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the
spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees
are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in
everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just
think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too
lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help
me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling
into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might
disappear
I might lose my mind

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in
you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't
sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love
for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone
in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too
lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I
can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you
do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm
lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't
think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in
you
(Too lost in you)

Not for anyone special, I just love the song. You know how much I love the Sugababes. I know this song will apply to a lot people out there (*cough*).

So anyways. I should be studying right now, but I'm distracted.

I just reread my last post and I sounded so preppy. "Gosh", "I am SO going to die early". Wow. I'm not preppy, mind you. (:

pfft.

I've been putting off posts so that my classmates would see my post about them. But since the others don't care to acknowledge people who care for the section, edi papatung-patungan ko nalang ng sandamakmak na posts, diba?

Pshshshshshhhh.

I am soooo wasted. I just woke up. It was so funny, since when I woke up and looked at the clock which said 6 o'clock, I suddenly rushed outside, 'cause I thought it was morning already. I was still in my uniform when I suddenly bustled out of our room. My sister and her friend just looked and me...and she said, "ok ka lang? mukha kang ulol.". I know, I know. But that's how I, and my beloved sister Chiara show love for each other. I know she loves me deep inside, especially when she's asking for something.

So anyways, imagine my horror when I found out that it was still the same day. My heart was beating so fast, since tomorrow, we'll have what-would-be our hardest final exams, Science and Social Studies. Ehhh I haven't studied yet. (:

So I came home wasted a while ago, carrying a LOT of stuff from my locker. We also got our class pictures today, I'll scan it when I can. I look stupid. But that's ok, most of us look wasted anyways.

***

I am so annoyed today. How is it that when I'm trying to avoid someone they have to be there lagi? (always) Hu hu hu. And then when I'm looking for someone, they're always hard to find!!!

Ah well. I PIGGED OUT today. I am such a loser. Actually, these past few days, I've been pigging out so bad. I'm SO going to die early. Just kidding. Gosh. I don't know why! The boys are like...I don't know. While I...am being such a pig. Maybe I'm just granting myself these things I will be banned from them during the summer.

I know. I hate it when mum nags me to lose weight.

It recently just occured to me that I really DO hate being nagged. :))

Friday, March 09, 2007

dise-sais.

This is the only time everything has sunk it. I feel so awful, thinking about the wonderful things that have happened to me today, I almost feel like crying.

Today is the last official day that I'll be seeing those backs and asses on their seats. I sit in the back, you know, so I see almost everyone.

Grabe, I can say that all's well that ends well. I've settled everything with everyone, I guess. No, I haven't talked to them, but considering how the reacted to me today, I think we're cool.

THIS IS THE BEST SECTION I HAVE EVER HAD.

They have made freshman year so worthwhile, so wonderful, I don't even know where to start. God has brought us together for a reason, I guess. So that we learn new lessons, experience more things, realize our wrongdoings, and just for once, accept people as they are.

I can finally say that I'll miss EVERYONE from sixteen '07. From (in no specific order, this was according to the class retreat picture)

big man danton who has the HUGE house in ayala alabang
johan...whose dimples are to DIE for.
lawrence whose looks can be deceiving...
justin, our very own koala bear.
zigmund, the moody guy...i think.
jiggy f., champion swimmer. woot!
norman. cornyboy. haha.
jp! jp, jp jp. mister sexeytarey!
mark, whose smile i will never forget
michael, perenial bugger. (;
renzo, my music budddy!!!!
aivi, number 1 ibong adarna. yeeeeaaah.
hanna, whose nails are as long as can be.
ako na sunod sa retreat pic eh. (i'm the next one in our retreat pic.)
ate jeeeet! dance buddy. lol. el bise de dise sais. tama? (correct?)
mariz, harry potter addict!
sheryll, superthin!
madelyn, supergay kid. haha. my rival to number 5! jk.
ayana. the kid with so many nicknames. yani,babs,robin,lumot,megaphone, magicwand...
crissa, kid with the cool haircut. yeah!
dia, dia dia, whose barkada has so many crushes, they give them directions as codenames
belina. chocnut, beybe! she's actually grown accustomed to her nickname, she acknowledges it!
dana, top girl!
genevieve, the gentle giant. you'd thought she'd have a big voice, but NOOO! (:
arielle, super quiet, but insightful as well.
big man franklin, EL PRESIDENTE, beybe!
inna, ernestoo! yihee!
erika! number 1 addict kay up. one time, i just asked them, have you seen up? and then they suddenly screamed like hell.
nadine. another up addict, and one of dia's kadamates.
jenjen. JERRYBEYBE!
ana, hahah. the ever-loud ana.
benedic, champion torpe.
jm, whose insights aren't as positive...
carl, BEBETOT! hahahaahahahahahahah.
sean, who's really nice, once you get to know him. i won't forget the time that i ACCIDENTALLY burped. you should have seen his face.
jiggy e, the great wall of china. yeeaah.
paul, my dadddyyyyy! hahahah. forever sabaw. or atleast he looks like it. TUGSH TUGSH TUGSH. hahahahahahah.
josh, the campus hottie and the predicted up-and-coming politico.
nicole, my driiiveeer! hahahahaha.
lenard...pikachu!
angeli, one of my closest buddies. kasagutan for life.
angelique, future miss universe. HAHAHAHAHA. sorry guys, she's [almost] taken.
barbie, the only japarabumbai in the world.
hazel, buddybuddyyyy!!! hahahaha. perenial slow person who loves laughing out loud.
kat, the kid looooved by everyone! (: i miss you, babe!

Wow. That was fun. Things went too fast, my dear friends. I wish to see you in the next life. And to Miss Marcos, the most understanding, most patient, the BEST class adviser ever. I swear to God, you deserve the BEST.

I love you SIXTEEN!

Thursday, March 08, 2007

bounce to this.

I was supposed to talk about chicken curry, but I deleted it. I was supposed to talk about how much I will miss my section, I deleted it too. I don't know why.

I'm listening to Bounce by Rage Against the Machine & Snoop Dogg. Rock and hiphop sounds good. Atleast in this collaboration.

Wow. Just the thought of being constantly in front of the computer and doing absolutely nothing productive makes me feel weird.

Summer bummer.

It's been a year, and I remember last summer. Last summer was ULTIMATE BLISS pare. I don't know if there's a pattern with my summers, but damn, last summer was so blissful. Last last summer made me fat. ((: Maybe this summer will suck.

No it won't. I won't let it suck. I'd do lot of stuff. I promised myself.

And probably, during summer, things would be better. Things will go back to the way they were.

How can I fix it if I don't know what HAPPENED? Would someone please tell me what happened?

Sure, I'd leave it alone. But it'll bother me, I promise. I don't like how it ended. It was a tragedy. But what the heck, I'll just get over it, I guess. Diba. I mean, what went wrong, damn it.

I wanna cry. Haha. Mommeee. :(

Ang daya kasi eh. If ever you're reading this, PLEASE tell me what happened. Or whatever.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

we flyin first class...up in the sky. (:

This is my 405th post. Cool. When will I reach my 1000th post kaya? Grabe, this blog is so special to me. I didn't know I'd last this long. When others have given up and transferred and gone somewhere and then gone back again and left and whatever's next, I'm still here. And I guess I'll be seeing more of people this summer, due to their uhm, summer boredom. Or whatever, I don't know.

I find my life completely uninteresting, and I find ways to make it seem interesting, without lying or fabricating whatever. I don't do that, that's not right.

Which is the reason why I am completely suprised to see more than 1 circle in my NeoFlag counter! YEEEEEEEEY. :) People actually DO drop by here! Ang daya naman, leave your COMMENTS, people!!

Wow, people from Croatia and Bahrain manage to drop by. And Poland. AND ITALY!

Oh wow, who're the people from UK? Hala, my titos? [UNCLES] HIII! Hahaha. Send your love to Matty and Gaia for me, IF EVER you are reading this.

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I SO miss my iPod. My baby! =(( I feel awfully sad. You want to know what happened?

We were hanging out at Danton's house, which had a pool [yeah, I have written about this house a couple of times before. the one in ayala alabang!!], and aivi, my friend/groupmate was using my ipod. She was fooling around with Lenard, so she pushed him to the pool. Then she went to side, and she SLIPPED down to the pool. Karma got back at her easy. What I wonder about is why I got karma'd too. What'd I do?

At first, I was kind of, it's ok, just pay for it. I didn't worry much, 'cause I thought it's just a blip, and it'll be fine the next day. I guess it wasn't. Up to now, it still won't work.

Aivi promised to pay for it anyways. Thanks Aivi! I really appreciate it.

And you know what, when I found out that it won't work anymore? I felt like crying. Really. It was a material thing, but I valued it a lot, and it's part of my daily routine. Now I practically live my life in silence, except when I am in front of the computer, 'cause I can always use my iTunes.

I miss my iPod. Really. I don't know why I feel sad without it. Maybe I got so attached to it, life's harder without it.

It DOESN'T help that some people around me go sashaying around with an iPod glued to their ears. Naiinggit ako. I feel jealous.

Music means a lot to me, in ways I cannot explain. Music can easily shift my mood. The lyrics, no matter how corny, chessy or whatever make me realize things. Music influences me. Music makes me dance. Music makes me lose control.

Music...is magic.

Labels: ipod, music, musicality

Monday, March 05, 2007

tired.

I promised myself not to post as often, but I guess I just can't help myself, can't I?

I'm tired, and sleepy, and stressed out. But it's ok, I guess it's just almost the end of the schoolyear, and I should have expected it coming.

Ok, I'm a complete loser 'cause I installed a NeoFlag counter. But I want to see if I only get visitors from the Philippines... What do you know, my uncles might be checking out my blog. It's kinda cute too... (: I don't expect those circles to grow...but it's ok... (:

Things are getting stressful, projects and homeworks here and there, plus problems pa. But I guess it's really up to you to deal with the problem or not. To make it a problem, or not. For now, since I've got a lot to do, I choose not to make it a problem, and just to get over it. It's not that hard, considering the fact that I'm on busy mode always. I should learn time management.

I can't wait for school to end. Summer, here I come! I've got so many activities planned during summer. Well, I just don't want to waste time, if you know what I mean. Summer's a great opportunity to meet new people, and discover new things, to meet new people...and to lose weight. I have to have to have to be fit. (: I'm not sad, 'cause I know I'll be keeping in touch with the people along the way. And boy, do I know I'll miss all these stress and homeworks and projects during the summer. (:

Sunday, March 04, 2007

no boy hates a girl.

There's no fun when no one comments. :( Come on, you don't have to have a blogspot account to comment. Please comment, you have no idea how much it makes my day/night/midnight.

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I did absolutely nothing productive today, I'm such a pig and a bum. I promised myself to do more things this summer. Like maybe soccer training, a kewl summer job, and maybe work out. I have to lose weight. My mum keeps bugging me about it. So I have to. Or else I have to keep up with my mum's litanies on how my crush would like me back if I lose weight. Hi, Mom.

Why don't guys just see through girls?

I don't know, but science says that people--not only guys--go after the physical things.

Which is true, for me. I'm practicing hypocrisy and I don't know it. But really, one of my 'latest' ventures was incredibly goodlooking (he must never read this or else it might get into his head bad)...but I wasn't entirely aware of it until I got interested with him. Which deems impossible to other people, since he's "the hottest property of the batch" as I may quote. But it doesn't matter to me anymore. He's ruined it for me, and I don't think he cares anyway, so why should I care?

I like someone new. (; I think. Maybe? Yeah. I don't know. I get the chills when I see him. So I should count that as something, shouldn't I? (: But he went out with someone else last prom night, not that I expect him to go out with me. DUH. I'm a freshman, he's a junior.

So to dot it all down, I like greenwich (5-55-55) and fountain boy. Fountain boy's cute. But "we're" crushing on him from afar. I doubt both know I exist. But it's ok, I guess. The hot kid I used to crush on knows I exist, and look where it got me. But I'm not saying that you shouldn't let the apple/s of your eye know that you exist--that's awful. It's just that what I just said doesn't apply in the aforementioned situation. But really, you should give it a shot in telling your guy that you like him. It might overflow into something really good. No one I know doesn't like to be crushed on by people. It's a boost for the self-esteem, and you end up feeling good about yourself. In turn, your feelings might overflow into feeling good about that someone and end up liking them too.

That's the explanation for...bakit ang mga lalaki nagkakacrush lang sa girl pag nagkakacrush siya sakanila?

Sometimes, it doesn't happen at an instant. But someone told me that if they found out that someone likes them, they think of that person often.

Well, you've got more reason to tell someone you like them, don't you? What have you got to lose? Don't make mistakes that I made. If they don't like you back, there's nothing wrong with that. More fish in the sea, babes and dudes.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

am i too dirty am i too flirty do i like what you like?

Some kids from our group in Filipino came over. Due to the incredibly low rate of the members present, we just decided to bum around and start to decide on what to do with the props. Out of the eleven members, only 4 (plus 1, which is I) came. I can't blame them, though. We met last Thursday already.

I met with JP, Johan, Danton and Angeli over at McDo's ATC. Members of another group --group 1, I think -- were also there. Grabe ang gulo talaga namin wherever, whenever. Ang dami nila, nakakainggit. I was kind of famished, so I bought large fries and large coke. When I brought the tray of my food, little hands started to grab at my fries like mad. Pagtingin ko, *huhuhu* halos nangalahati na yung fries. Takaw talaga oh. Tsk.

So...yeah, they like, left ahead of us... And akala namin a'attend pa si Franklin, so we waited. My mom kind of checked out the Xda Exec that they were selling somewhere in ATC. So when she came back and Franklin was declared a no-show, we left. What if Franklin was there...tapos he arrived just the same time as we left? Poor kid.

Yeah. Roadtrip... It was kind of funny, cause three of my other goupmates had no clue where we were going, since they all lived in Parañaque, and I stay in Las Piñas, together with Johan. We arrived, digged on some chips, and then had lunch. I was kind of glad they felt like home. Yeah. They would occasionally go on this computer and do whatever they would wish.

After that, we set for SM Southmall, which is just walking distance from our house. The boys went to play Dota while I, Angeli and my little sister Chiara bought the things that we needed.

GRABE Sale sa SM. You know how sales in SM go. Savage. Haha. But we managed to get through. Nauna kami sa boys pauwi. They stayed behind and played DOTA. I was kind of worried nung matagal sila... But they ended up going home anyway, and I was in the CR, taking a bath. Yeah, I'm a rude host. But whatever, they didn't seem to mind.

Tapos yun. JP served as a 'form of entertainment'. Yeah. Danton and Mojacko helped us. Angeli was rambling like mad. Poor kid doesn't know what to do with the turtles that she needs to save. As if I know what to do with mine.

Boys left early, they were fetched by Johan's brother. Angeli and I continued painting. No, scratch that. I ate and ate, while Angeli painted. When I couldn't eat no more, I painted with her... Ayun. We fixed up, then set off to town. Watched It's A BoyGirl Thing. Cool movie. (:

I'm worried how our play will turn out. =))

Labels: groups, mcdo, school

Friday, March 02, 2007

celebrities, balls and pechay.

I feel happy today. I can finally tell myself that I'm ready to say byebye to a certain person who used to be the sun in my solar system. The center of my life. Well, I was sad with how it ended. But if you really come down to it, it's just like before, except the fact that things are going on behind my back. But I really don't mind. Now, I think I can live the celebrity life.

I don't know how celebrities do it. They get tons of cash yet they expect to get freebies. Some make showbiz appear easy. Maybe I'm just clueless, I don't know. What do they do if they ain't famous anymore?

The kid was one memory I'd always love to remember. One I'd always love to talk about. But it's cool. Maybe some things just weren't meant to be.

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Oh, and oh, we won the finals today against section 13. Intrams volleyball game. We're CHAMPIONS already!!! It still hasn't sunk in. I mean eversince grade 5, the team which includes the top section (in our batch) has never won the championships...UNTIL NOW! Initially, we were supposed to go against section 11, but we waited for them for over an hour or so... We even asked Miss to extend the deadline 10 minutes more. They lost by default, and they're complaining, 'cause Miss didn't allow them to play. Frankly, I don't know what'll happen.

If nothing goes wrong, we're going against section 29 for the finals. Oh God. I think it's going to be hard, considering the fact that I think they're goooooood. Well, good luck though. I guess we just have to believe in what we could do. YEAH! We've improved over the set of games that we've played. We actually beat section 13, despite our loss against them during the qualifying games.

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Political advertisements are rampant right now. It's campaign period already. Senatoriables have appeared with their individual TV commercials. And believe me, they ARE amusing. Especially Prospero Pichay's. Pichay. Itanim sa senado!!! I do think he's aware that pechay's a vegetable. It just sounds weird. But I guess it's a gimmik they use so that the voters would remember his name.

Miguel Zubiri's amusing and bemusing at the same time... Zubiri! Zubiri! Boom boom boom!

Even Mike Defensor's is weird... Tol! Tol!

I only find Kiko Pangilinan's ad decent...Andito na si Kiko...(in tune with one of PnE's songs). It's catchy, and it caters to the younger voters.

I reckon how the senatoriables are going to get votes using their commercials. I know nought about these things. Marketing and stuff.

And just in the topic of politics...What if one of the people I know becomes an electorate? (Tama ba?). That'd be really awesome. Uy classmate ko yan nung highschool oh! HAHAHA.

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And these three topics conclude my now-weekly post. (:

Labels: byebyes, politcal advertisments, volleyball

Thursday, March 01, 2007

i'm tired.

i'm tired. -_-